Life has thrown me more curve balls lately. I have four jobs; 2 are part-time, 2 are on-call. The on-call jobs don’t always have work. I say what days I … Continue reading Life Has to Kick Me Down a Few Times Before I’ll Succeed
I have been through the emotional gauntlet the past month and a half. For about a month I dealt with the worst depression cycle of the young year. When I … Continue reading My Self-Doubts
I’ve been doing well to keep up with reading most of the posts on this fantastic collaborative blog and I’ve noticed that a lot of us are really struggling right … Continue reading Let’s Bloom Together
So today I’m supposed to work a 6-hour shift. The problem that I’m having is that I can’t bring myself to go or call in. You see the problem I’m … Continue reading My depression and work today
As I lay in bed I cannot ignore the weight of dread for the months ahead I practice being in the moment instead Yet… it will not get out of … Continue reading Death’s Kiss
This weekend was very difficult for me. My mental illness had me in its grip tight which kept me in bed for Friday evening, Saturday afternoon and about 75 percent … Continue reading Does Mental Illness = Weakness?
It’s okay if all you did today was survive. The other day I had one of those days. I couldn’t focus. I had trouble getting out of bed. The need … Continue reading In This Mental Illness Life, Some Days You Just Survive
It was my son’s 15th birthday on Saturday. He originally had plans to go to the arcades with his brand new (first) girlfriend, but her parents forbade her going at … Continue reading How Depression Ruined My Child’s Birthday
This is a particularly favorite chapter in my memoir because the subject matter is something that is near to heart—my love for the sport of baseball. With the start of … Continue reading My Love for Baseball
I’m having a very difficult day today. My anxiety levels are high while my depression is begging for me to crawl into bed where I can fall apart. Since my … Continue reading Encouraging Myself Before I Snap
It could be the time of year. I always struggle to find my focus during the colder winter months. The recent time change has allowed me to be more productive and I see that my mental health is improving, which is everything. It is a small sample size, but I am always better when the weather is much better.
There is a battle in my head no matter what I do I can’t win. I always lose my head in the battle. Even as I sit here and write … Continue reading The battle
Life is not easy, nor will ever be.
You are a fighter and a survivor.
And worthy of love
and to revive her.
Sticks and stones can’t and will not break your bones.
Life will get you down,
They will get you down.
They will call you names like ugly and fat.
Just your life is so much more than that.