How Did I Get Here?

10 years. It still hasn’t sunk in.

To the start of another ten-year journey.

Today marks my official anniversary date of my first time attempting suicide. It feels so surreal. My journey over the past ten years was the lowest darkest lows and some of the strangest highs. I have tested the limits of who I am as an individual and a human being.

I have loved.
I have lost.

I have fought a great war, and while I have lost many battles along the way, I can say it feels great to just be alive. Sure, it isn’t always fun being in my own skin. Just today my so anxiety is at high levels, but I combat these feelings by leaving my comfort zone and writing in my favorite coffee spot.

I wish those of you who follow my blog could have been with me on the entire journey of the last ten years, but I making up the lost time with my blog and my memoir. I feel really sentimental in this moment. I say this all the time, but I really never thought that I would ever reach such a huge milestone in my life.

This is it. The beginning of a new chapter in my life. In this moment I have found the understanding that there was always something at work in my life, and it is why no matter how hard I tried, I was meant to be here. As I continue to reflect on the past ten years it will be to understand enough of the past to make my memoir something great.

“The Bipolar Writer” was born out of the need to be “James the Writer” and the fact that “my diagnosis will always be a part of me.” I decided today to cherish every day for the next ten years because at the end of this new journey I will be a better person.

Thank you for every follower of my blog that brightens up my every day with comments, praises, and their stories. It means the world to me.

Always keep fighting.

James Edgar Skye

Upgrading The Bipolar Writer Blog to Business

I am looking to expand The Bipolar Writer blog to new territories that include having the blog sell books for other artists (if I can make everything work). I am also looking to sell my own book here on my blog. I hate asking for donations but I have to do what I can.

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Photo Credit: Aneta Ivanova

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28 Replies to “How Did I Get Here?”

  1. People say we shouldn’t dwell on the past — not forget the past, but move forward. I think that for the both of us, examining our pasts helps us better understand ourselves in the present.

    1. It does help to examine my past and I am glad that you are doing the same. Everything I write from here on out about the past ten years will fall into the past now. I am marking this day as new thing.

  2. Congratulations! I wish you great happiness and fulfillment in the coming years. Stay strong, stay friendly, keep writing! 😊👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻🌞🌞🌞

  3. Congratulations!! It is hard to stay afloat and keep pushing but just know you are not alone. Stay connected to yourself and if you ever come across hard times reach out to someone. I have been diagnosed with Bipolar I and it is the most frustrating thing for me everyday.

    I am in the same boat with needing help purchasing better equipment for my writing life and it is not easy. I will share your post and I hope you get the support you need.

    Good luck!

    1. Thank you for your kind words. It isn’t easy and I have never been the type to ask for help. I am doing some freelance work and I am finishing my degree. Not to mention keeping up on my blog. So it has been tough to save up for a big purchase. It is greatly appreciated that you are sharing my post. If you ever need anyone to talk to, I am here to talk always.

      1. You’re welcome! Freelance work really?? That’s amazing. I can only imagine the feeling of being offered an opportunity to creatively express and make a living. What degree are you working on? I definitely want to help where I can and the best way is by putting the word out there.

        Thank you for the offer and I will definitely keep you in mind.

      2. I am two semesters away from completing my creative writing degree with a specialization in fiction. I minored in screenwriting, journalism and political science.

      3. Ahhh nice! That sounds like a lot of fun. How long were you in for?

  4. It is great to hear someone who has been in such a dark place say they are glad to be alive and look forward to the future. That means you are doing something right!

  5. This brings a tear to my eye, to have survived that incredibly dark place, and turned your experience into something that helps others (as well as helping you) is totally incredible. I am so happy for you, but I’m also really happy for me that I found your blog. It’s truly inspirational, particularly at the moment with my physical health getting worse. It’s easy for my mental health to take a big dive at the same time, but your blog reminds me why I write and why it’s always worth fighting against the darkness. Thank you.

    1. It really has been an honor to get to know you all this time within the confines of my blog. Writing is out greatest strength against the struggles of mental health. Thank you for always being here for me. It means the world the friendship that has grown between us.

      1. Thank you! I feel the same. I’m so lucky to have found this blog and been able to talk to you and become friends. It’s pretty amazing what writing can do! Thank you for always taking the time to reply and reading my rant-y comment novels. 🙂

  6. Anniversaries are so important. You are growing all the time and helping others by sharing so honestly from your experience. In my opinion that helps more than all the therapy in the world. For what you have experienced is both unique and also shared by others. I am so glad you are on this earth still.

      1. I could see a screenplay you write being turned into a movie. I would love to see a hard hitting movie that exposed the psychiatric profession. Not that that is something you would do, but you have a story to tell and its an important one.

      2. I wrote some of my experiences chronicled in my short story in my screenplay that I finished this year. I think your idea is a good one. I am writing the novel version of my screenplay so I could that to my novel.

      3. I will be looking forward to reading it. I would love to make a movie about my sister’s life. Its beyond me though. I imagine scenes from it often.

      4. That would be amazing. Writing a screenplay isn’t hard. There are plenty of books out there that can help you get started.

  7. Really inspiring. Try to always find the good in everything, and it looks like you did that. And remember we are all human, and we are all in this together. We can’t do this alone!

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