It’s been an interesting week for me. I went through a panic attack almost every night this week, My anxiety is at high levels, I saw my psychiatrist with a positive outcome, I continue to have issues with my computer, I found a faculty member at my school to sponsor my screenplay for a student screenwriting competition, and I am looking at alternatives to combat my anxiety with a service dog.
All in all its been a week to remember, and I’d rather forget some of the moments. So let’s look back at the week and what this blog had to offer.
At the start of this week I wrote a new journal piece that is a part of a series entitled My Third Honest Post. In this piece, I explored what I have learned since starting my blog over three months ago, and I thanked all the people that have made The Bipolar Writer possible.
In this blog piece, I analyzed some great information about the causes of my social anxiety tied to overloading myself with school and my writing. In this piece I compare last year at this time and how similar my issues now parallel the present. I really focused on the “why” in this piece.
Okay, technically this piece wasn’t written this week but it was a fun one to write so I wanted to share it. I am a huge fan of Korean Pop and I am learning Korean as my New Years resolution.
It’s interesting that I was able to write so much considering my anxiety levels this week, but this was piece was special to write about because I talk about how, when I am deep into the darkness of my depression, it is imperative for me to keep writing. Even when things are muddled in my mind.
Social anxiety is a major issue in my life and one that, over the last two years, has really kept me from doing the things I love like going to a movie or just being in the general public. Not leaving my house in the winter time has been a common theme, one that I need to work on in the coming year.
This post was after my appointment with my psychiatrist in which I had little faith in the time leading up to the appointment. But I put my faith in a higher power and everything turned out okay. Sometimes light gets through the darkness.
This was just a fun blog post about my love for baseball. I am not all about doom and gloom with my anxiety and depression. There are other sides of who James is as a person.
This blog piece opens up about my last suicide attempt in 2010. I talk about different aspect of this last suicide attempt including my “for the last time” moments. Suicide is always a hard subject to write about but I do feel better afterward. I did mention in this post that I thought suicide was a selfish choice, but to clarify I mostly mean in my own life. I still stand by that statement, it is selfish to leave behind people that love you, only my opinion.
I wrote this as an opinion blog piece and I was surprised at the number of people that agreed with me about how group therapy just isn’t for them. I also had a few people praise group. I think its a decision we all have to make in the end.
So that is my week in review. A lot of great information was shared this week even with all my struggles.
I wanted to end with a note for all of my followers who have donated towards my new computer. Thank you so much! It means the world to me. I am still short of my goal but I am working hard to reach that goal. If you can help me, you are amazing. The link is below. If you can’t, I hope you can still enjoy what I have to offer on my blog.
Here’s to a great week for my fellow bloggers!
Always Keep Fighting.
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