I am well over a month into my new journey. I decided long ago to divide my mental illness into ten-year intervals. The first starts in 2007 and ending this past November 2017. I always mark the start of my first journey that night in November 2007 when I thought the world lost me. It was an amazing journey my first ten years. Thought I have decided to finally write my memoir, it doesn’t mean that my life stops.
But that’s the past. My first ten years is now my memories for the days where I am writing a memoir. I am looking towards the future every day. I wake up with renewed strength to keep fighting this fight.
I have changed in so many ways since starting this blog. My writing has been more natural, it comes to me without me forcing it to will. I have become more of James Edgar Skye. The writer, the blogger, and the screenwriter, than I ever thought possible. I know its only a week into the New Year, but in January of last year, I was nearing the end of writing my screenplay.
I overdid life then, I didn’t eat much. I was a constant ball of stress and anxiety. I couldn’t function and yet continued to push myself. I didn’t have the skills that I have acquired over the year. I am using my experiences to combat my anxiety. By the end of the month last year, I was in the hospital lost again.
It was never easy to get to this place. Where I could talk about my life. It makes it easier to write as J.E. Skye, but I am not hiding behind my pen name like I did with my screenplay. I became who I needed to be in the last year and I am not looking back.
This the next chapter in my journey. I am determined to start this one off better than the last.
I hope all that read this knows that no matter where you are on your journey, always keep fighting.