It is great to look back on the previous month and see where I am at, and where I am going. This has been a bad month for me in one respect. I have been missing appointments with my therapist. My first missed appointment in January was because my therapist was sick. The second was because I was sick. Being sick seems to be going around because everyone I know is really sick. It happens at this time of the year.
I have been super busy, but I haven’t really thought about things like I should have, like it when it comes to my social anxiety. I have been really focused, but it’s always in my safe place. Where I live.
I worry how that will affect me this week and even beyond this week. It will be a couple of weeks before my therapist has time to see me again and my social anxiety is still my biggest issue. I plan on working on my social anxiety this month, and in the coming months. I have been in a good place with my anxiety but its here where I live. With my new Ativan dosage but being sick this week I haven’t had a chance to refocus.
I need to start leaving my house more so that I can get back into a routine. My hope is to get my social anxiety under control using cognitive behavioral therapy and immersion therapy. Getting out of my safe place is a priority. That means getting out and not to places that make me feel safe if that makes sense. I want to get my anxiety when I am driving under control as well.
It is one of my biggest things I want to work in 2018. I am not really looking forward to it because, well its going to be tough. My social anxiety is my greatest weakness. I have been able to get my depression under control (my goal for 2017) but anxiety, in general, has always eluded me. I am hopeful but worried at the same time.
Things are going so well in my life. I am very hopeful and cautious. At the same time, I am ready to tackle another month, even with being sick. So here is to another great month.
Always keep fighting.
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