Fall and Get Back Up
When we fall, we get back up because we do not really have a choice otherwise. This is human nature. It isn’t as easy as it sounds though. I can only speak on behalf of my experience and my experience is tainted with mental illness. I believe this to be true in those who do not live with mental illness as well but I can not say for certain.
Life is difficult when we begin new adventures. Many roles are expected to be filled which can become haunting. Say for instance you want to author a book. You simply can not just write the book and be done with it. It has to be edited, published, and promoted. Nowadays in the world of media, we must exploit ourselves to be seen or heard. Not only our success but our failures are witnessed by thousands. There are many contributing factors that are a part of whether we stand or we fall.
Trying to strive towards success with a mental illness has proven sketchy for myself. Again these pitfalls may be experienced by those without mental illness but for myself, these are amplified.
Self-doubt has reared it’s ugliness more than I’d like to admit. To the point that I do not want to continue. I can not seem to get past it. I struggle to find the beauty in my unique style. I want to stand alone but can not find the courage to do so. Luckily there is a voice inside my head that will not be silenced, coaching me to rise up, to continue, to move forward despite what I am feeling. I know in my heart that what I strive to do has a purpose, I just haven’t come across the way to implement it. Which leads me to the next setback.
Lack of trust
This falls along the same lines as self-doubt and all that I will mention does yet it plays a separate role. Lacking trust in one’s abilities causes great strife. Once I make a decision, I go back and forth between whether it was the right or wrong decision. This makes it almost impossible for me to move forward or get back up, so to speak. In reality, there is no right or wrong way to go about things especially creative ideas but for myself, it is easier said than accepted.
There are ample amounts of resources made available. This becomes an overwhelming factor. As I seek guidance, I am given too many options to chose from. This is sensory overload for me. My decision-making skills are limited if not non-existent, making deciding a challenge.
These three examples all play off one another making it almost impossible for me to move forward with my decision to begin a creative business. New adventures open new horizons which I am entitled too yet I am my own pitfall. Low self-esteem and lack of confidence are what it boils down too. These are characteristics that have prevented me from getting back up time and time again. I am my own worst critic.
Today I would like to reach out and ask for some suggestions to get past this phase. It is impacting my goals in a negative manner, one that I am not comfortable with. I once was a self-proclaimed quitter but for the last year or so I have set out to do things with an “I will not quit” attitude and I refuse to turn back now.
What are some things that you have tried that worked in helping you overcome self-doubt? Do you now trust your abilities?
Any and all feedback is appreciated. Thanks- Candace