Have you ever wondered who you are? Or been asked, who are you? Much like the caterpillar in Alice in Wonderland asks Alice while blowing smoke rings. I am in a place where I am wondering who I am, where do I fit, where do I want to go, who do I want to be?
I have had some down time and with that time, well that’s when I think my big thoughts, the heavy ones, the ones that are complex and deep. This is what I have come up with.
Who Am I?
I am a powerhouse, a person of great energy, strength, or power. A strong, persistent warrior. A woman who has been through hell, bearing the scars that show the struggles that have nearly taken me down with them. However, I have fought the good fight and come out the other side stronger and more confident.
Where Do I Fit?
I am a multifaceted person. I have much depth and width. I have spent years trying to identify where I fit. And now in my life where I operate in numerous varying capacities, I still struggle to figure out where I fit. I am a mom and a spouse. A student and an assistant. I am in my mid-30s and a female. So many various categories, but all wrapped up in one person.
Where Do I Want to Go?
For as long as I can recall, I have been motivated to always aspire to make things just a little bit better. I am all for making slight improvements that will better my life and overall well-being. Where I want to go is forward. I don’t need to take leaps and bounds. Just moving in an advancing motion is what I want. I have no clue where I will end up, but I know that by continuing the motion, I will land exactly where I need to be when I need to be there.
Who Do I Want to Be?
How many times have you been asked what you want to be when you were in your youth. As a child, normally the answer to this question would be a profession. I want to be a teacher, or an executive. Often answers I gave included being a mom, but also wanting to be an executive with a corner office with a view. But today, I want to be stable. Stable mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually. I want to be balanced and happy.
I am in a place where I am learning to be content with me. To be accepting and loving to the person I am today, precluding judgement and straying away from ridicule. I am not in a place where I thought I would be, but that does not mean that where I am currently is not a better place than where I thought I would end up. Often, I have found in my life, that when I affix a hard expectation to something, I get disappointed if the results are not perfect. I get so focused on what isn’t that I overlook what is. I am learning to be thankful for all things and to look for the good in each and every element of my life and meditate on those things. When I spend time focusing on the positives and the good, my whole life and world seems to be more peaceful and filled with grace. What about you?
Sprinkled Cupcakes and Fairy Dust,