What about me is memorable?
Besides my crying eyes.
Is it the lies
or my highs?
Genuinely I ponder
Not in the same frame of mind
as when I am suicidal
I find
We all would like to leave a legacy
and mine, I’ll define
A lost soul once found
face down on the ground
with nothing to hold onto
pulling herself upright
she had given up that night
the battle in her mind
she could no longer fight
Is that the me they will see,
if they miss me
For I have rewritten my story
this time they are my words
not the ones I was told
Proud of living a life
carefree and bold
Aren’t they aware there
are two of me?
Which will I be when I am set free?
Isolating, striving to be
the better version of me
Some days still lost
I search frantically within
for it is inside
on days they cannot see
the me I’ve grown to be
I wonder if they will miss me
I am capable of writing full sentences but when I am doubtful of my words, I present them in this style because my thoughts are fragmented. Often times I want to write about my life and my achievements but for some reason, I have a tendency to write reflectively. It enables me to see where I have grown yet holding me hostage in a familiar place. A place that is deep within, fearing the light. Keeping it dark and hidden protects that part of me yet acknowledges its existence. The moment I pretend it isn’t there, it will wreak havoc on my life. I am in a place somewhere between mania and stability maintaining as best I can. I fear the come down as I’ve been up for a while. And I love this part of me.
Lovely poem Eve, the form doesn’t matter in my opinion just the content.
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BY FOR NOW
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Thank you Dawn
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Your Welcome Eve.
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Although it’s sad, there is so much hope in this piece and that’s what I will take away from it – beautifully written :O) x
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Very deep piece indeed. God is our comforter and He will deliver and comfort you! He loves you very much! Surrender you life to Him! Let Him take full control of your life. Be blessed and encouraged. Blessings& peace! Xxoo
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A very touching piece. I wish you all the best 💛 Delora x
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Thank you
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Beautiful writing
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Thank you
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Love this
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Fascinating poem! I love it.
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Thanks! ❤
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Beautiful and powerful, i think this form of writing can have more impact than full sentences if written well and you did it for me. I loved this, this touched me more than any paragraph could. ❤❤
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Thank for your kind comment❤
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My pleasure ❤
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Lovely poem! I’ve often wondered the same thing.
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🙁
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Beautiful! Can’t wait to read more of your writing.
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Wow this had me in tears. It was so beautiful and so real.
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Thank you. Definitely vulnerable.
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I totally understand where you are coming from, writing my first blog was terrifying. I felt so raw like people can see inside my heart. I love this though and you should write anyway you want, if this is how you express yourself the so be it.
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Thank you
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If no one else, your readers will miss you like hell. Keep writing girl ❤
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Thank you for the encouragement!
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