Always Stay Positive, Always Keep Fighting

Have you ever been on a roller coaster? A big one? Where it has these heights that are truly high, allowing you to see for miles around? And then it has these drops that make you think that you will crash and burn? Roller coasters are fun. But now I want you to imagine being on the sort of roller coaster I just described, permanently. And I also want you to imagine that on this roller coaster, you can’t see what’s in front of you. You can’t see where the coaster is going, you are at the mercy of the track. Imagine every day of every week, of every year, you constantly go through intense highs and frightening lows, without having any warning. Welcome to being bipolar.
I’ve been dealing with bipolar disorder for years now. Oddly enough it wasn’t until the beginning of this year that I was able to put a label on what was wrong with me. Going through intense manic and depressive episodes weren’t normal, I knew that. I just didn’t know what to call it.
Learning you have a ‘mental illness’ isn’t an easy pill to swallow. At least for me, it wasn’t. Dealing with a mental illness is even harder. How do you deal with an enemy, when the enemy is your brain? Its linked to you, it’s a part of you. Wherever you go, it follows you. And it often chooses the most inconvenient times to manifest itself. It’s always just beneath the surface, waiting to come out. And the war is never-ending. So, how do you fight?

What helps me is remembering a simple phrase. It’s the title of this post, “Always stay positive, always keep fighting.” For me, always stay positive means looking at the good in situations. Like last week, I was taking a long car trip. I had woke up that day in a fantastic mood, and a few hours later, I felt so down. No particular reason. I was just thinking about things that bothered me, and I felt myself getting dragged lower, and lower. I came dangerously close to getting depressed. I then remembered my little phrase, and it reminded me to think of the good. I focused my mind on everything great that happened that day. I had a great cup of coffee, I was reading a book I really liked, I was with my family, and we’re all healthy, I have an incredible, amazing girlfriend. I was staying positive. I wasn’t pretending that life was beautiful. I simply refocused my mind. I have to go back and single out every good thing that happened to me that day. It’s usually something small. It gets tedious sometimes, but you have to do it.

“Always keep fighting” is something I picked up from James Edgar Skye. I realize he didn’t come up with the phrase, but I learned it from him just the same. Repeating that to myself helps me refocus my mind. It reminds me that dealing with bipolar disorder isn’t a war to be won, it’s a battle you fight daily. You have to take each day as it comes. And you must never give up. Never quit. Sometimes depression will try to drag you down and consume you. Sometimes the mania will launch you into overdrive, and you’ll feel like you’re on a speeding train with no brakes. Sometimes you’ll want to just give in and not try to fight at all. But I’m encouraging you, don’t. This life is worth it. Your life is worth it. It’s worth fighting to be happy.

Fighting gets exhausting sometimes. Sometimes you can lose focus. That’s why the phrase is short and simple. It’s easy to remember and yet it has so much packed into it. Stay strong. Always stay positive, always keep fighting!

unsplash-logoNathan Dumlao

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16 Replies to “Always Stay Positive, Always Keep Fighting”

  1. This is exactly how I am feeling today. For no apparent reason, I am in a foul mood and can’t seem to pick myself back up despite trying ever so hard 😦

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      1. It did in some way….as I continuously forget to tell myself to carry on fighting 🙂 thanks for a little reminder to be stronger!

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  2. What a beautiful post! I may not have manic episodes, but I know what it’s like to spiral into a depressive one. I have been working on seeing the positives in life for a long time now and sometimes it’s hard. Sometimes I feel guilty for being happy. Like you said.. the happiness isn’t fake. The things that are going well aren’t fake. For me, sometimes it’s hard to balance everything out. But recently it’s been a little easier. So thanks for that.

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    1. Thank you so much Tiana! It means everything to me to see you reading and liking this! Thank you for the inspiration you are to me, thank you for your support and encouragment. This is all because of you!

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      1. It’s because of you too.. and because of James and because it’s meant to be.. or maybe even for no reason at all, but seeing you do this.. nothing in the world makes me happier.

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  3. While I can’t relate to being bipolar, I enjoyed reading this post and gaining more of an understanding as to what it’s like. Thank you for writing such an insightful post.

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