Fixing My Social Anxiety
I have thought a lot recently about my habits, what works, and why I decide (consciously or unconsciously) to stop doing the Cognitive Behavioral Therapy things that make my social anxiety just a bit better at the moment. When things are right, I tend to move away from things until it gets to the point where I am isolating myself and barely leaving my house. The funny thing is that everything in my life tends to go that way, I continue to go against what is the right thing to do to a point where I am spiraling. Then, and it seems only then do I finally pick myself up off the floor and try to recalibrate my life.
One of the best things I can do day in and day out is mindfulness breathing. It is easy and a straightforward thing to do. It is great to use when you need to refocus your daily routine when anxiety seems to take over control. Concentrating is an amazing and useful tool and one I have found works– and yet I don’t always use it until my anxiety reaches new levels of anxiousness.
Recently, I started a list of things I wanted to add to my daily routine. Things that have gotten away from me as isolation begun to become a part of my life.
- Begin to integrate my workout routine– again.
- Meditate in the morning and in the afternoon.
- Eat healthier.
- Make plans to go out and have a cup of tea or coffee at my favorite coffee shop.
- Focus on sleeping better through the night.
- Restart my bi-weekly therapy appointments.
While these are great things and I am always a work in progress, there is so much more to do. I recently did the unthinkable. I drove past this bubble that I created in the city that I live in. Until recently I don’t more than 10-15 miles from my house, but I drove on a trip almost 25 miles one way. I got stuck in traffic. It was touch-and-go for a bit, but I survived with some help from my Ativan and my work with CBT (mindfulness breathing). I did have some pre-anxiety feelings, but I approached it with CBT, and I survived.
I realize that isolation, while helpful to get back to my roots, is not the solution. Being out in the world and not being this awkwardly social person while I am in society doesn’t have to be my future. I can continue to focus on what helps me get through my social anxiety outside my front door. The journey to conquering social anxiety has to start somewhere.
I want to end with this, to my readers, how did you go about ending isolation associated with anxiety?
Always Keep Fighting