I am not sure that there is a right answer to this question. Don’t get me wrong, I am happy where my life is at the moment. I am moving forward, and life isn’t passing me by. I am doing my best to meet life head-on in hopes that the current trend will stay true.
2018 has been an interesting year for me. I have grown so much as a writer than where I was at this time last year. I achieved some great things. I finally finished my bachelor’s degree, and I am in the beginning stages of working on my master’s degree. I finished my memoir, and it is close to being published. This blog has become this amazing thing in my life, and I hope it is also that way for anyone following this blog. I have nothing to complain about if I am honest.
There is just one thing missing in my life. Someone to share it all with… I will, again, be honest, but I have not been looking for a relationship. I decided a long time ago I need to get my life back on track and find some success before I even think about bringing someone into my life.
That still holds true today, but given this time of year, it would nice to have someone to spend some time within the little free time I have lately. That brings me back full circle. Is it possible to be happy without someone at your side?
I am not great at letting people into my life. This life, the mental illness life, is always too messy. I keep everyone in my life at a distance. It is the best way to keep people from getting hurt. I have hurt the people closest to me when it comes to this life. Could I let someone into my life that doesn’t understand what it is like to live with a mental illness? That is the other side of this coin because the truth is if you haven’t lived this life it is harder to understand. The stigma is real, and I am still learning to love myself first.
That is why we fight to end the stigma. Maybe next year when my memoir is published, and life is a quieter I will find a way to let people into my life.
That is where I will end this… Let me know your thoughts!
Always Keep Fighting