Can we Pick-up the Pieces we Lose in This Mental Illness Life?
In this mental illness life, we leave pieces of ourselves all over the place. When we try to take ourselves out of the equation, you lose a part of yourself–self-respect. The confidence that you have it all things is gone. The love that you should have for yourself. The hope that life will get better. It withers away. These pieces get lost, and it is so easy to not notice that they are gone. You are broken.
I have felt this way so many times in this life. Alone and lost in the hopelessness of my illness. Since I lost many of these pieces of myself, it has felt as if I will never get these things back. I have found that you can start to begin to get these things back, but it is a long process, and it is very possible to lose these pieces for good. The idea came from where my thoughts have been lately.
When my life is busy, it is easier to forget the things that I have lost because of my mental illness. When life slows down, it seems to overflow my mind to the point that it consumes.
I have lost so much of myself over the years. It feels as if I can’t feel right about things like my self-respect. Can you get something like that back?
The worst comes with my confidence. I am not confident at all especially when it comes to dealing with people. It comes from being an introvert and coping with social anxiety, but over time I have lost my confidence. Things that I know I am good at can be so difficult for me to deal. I was never a people person, but social situations used to be tolerable. I feel hopeless when I have to meet new clients or making friends with others.
It helps to write. That is the one place that I feel confident in this life. I can write about my issues because it helps to talk about what is going on. When I put words into a piece of writing it feels good. I wish I could translate that to the outside world.
So, my fellow writers, what do you think? Can you pick up the pieces? What are some of the pieces of yourself that you have lost because of mental illness?
Always Keep Fighting