Last week was the worst week for my mental health in 2019. The great thing about the start of a new year is that you can always find a way to reinvent yourself.
I gave myself a break this past weekend. My depression and insomnia reached new levels. My anxiety and panic attacks decided to make an appearance. All in all, it will be a forgettable week. I stayed in bed way too much and felt hopeless for the first time in forever. The doubt crept in, and I found myself drowning (metaphorically speaking, I can’t swim so if I actually drowned there would be no blog post.)
It was a tough week, but there were some positives in my week. I outlined the entire plot of my next novel (this will be a fantasy fiction/supernatural series.) I am starting to figure out the characters, plot points, where I am going with exposition, rising action, and I even figured out how my novel ends and how the second novel in the series will start. I wrote the ending to my entire series.
Although I had to write some of it from the comfort of my living room it was writing–it was real and it helped me get through some bad depression.
I am changing my routine. Earlier wake up. Adding coffee back into my life (it has been five months of just tea). I am journaling twice a day, working out an hour a day, and scheduling mindfulness meditation between my school work and writing. I am working on characters this week and if all goes well I could start writing my new novel in the coming weeks.
I got some rejection letters from for my screenplay these past few days, but I am staying the course. Rejections are just a part of the process. What I hate is that you need connections in the film industry to really get someone to read your work. All I can do is keep sending letters, and enter as many screenwriting contests as I can afford. Maybe one of my query letters will be looked at by an agent, and he/she would sign me.
Unfortunately, my memoir is on hold. I am not sure if I am ready to publish or if I need to pay a professional to edit to make it perfect. I consider myself okay at editing. I might consider beta readers. For now I am putting the project away for a couple of weeks and then I will come back to it when my head is in a better place.
I consider today a new start. Day one. The beginning of something new. I am hoping waking up at 6am and to work non-stop will finally make me tired enough to sleep through the night. I am hoping for the best. Stay strong my friends.
Always Keep Fighting
Now, I had to use my real name for this (I write under my pseudonym James Edgar Skye) so don’t be surprised by the name–David TC. Also, this allows me to show how much has been donated (I will give the running total at the end of the post.
We have raised $135! That is amazing.
We are still short of our goal of $325, the cost of the upgrade for a year. If we raise enough, I’d like to upgrade for the next two years (which totals $435.) If you can donate it would mean the world to me, if not I understand. 100% of what is raised will stay with the blog and only used to upgrade.