Unanswered Questions

Almost 6 months ago, I lost the most important man in my life, my father. We were very close, and it absolutely wrecked me to lose him. I did write about this in this post, and wrote this poem while thinking about the last two days of his life. Today’s poem is for all my unanswered questions.

Who’s hand am I left holding
Now that you’ve gone away?
Who will be my 6AM
Breakfast date on Tuesdays?
Who will see the movies with me
That no one else wants to see?
Who will annoy me with politics
If you’re not in the driver’s seat?
How do I fall asleep at night
With that day stuck in my head?
How do I get up every day
Knowing you’re not there?
Is life always this unfair
Or is there some sort of balance?
Are you really just gone
Like you believed
Or is there something more?
What if I meet the one?
Who will give me confirmation
On if you think he’s good enough?
Who will walk me down the aisle
If that day comes along?
Who will give me grief
When I’m late to watching Blacklist?
Who will be my rock
When I get caught up in my head?
Who will text me “Good Night Moon”
Or even “Good night, baby?”
Who will answer if I text back
“Goodnight, daddy?”
Who will tell me terrible jokes
And send me endless texts?
There was a sort of comfort
In the “annoyance”
That is now filled with silence.
Who will guide me in this world
When I feel lost and confused?
Would you have chosen differently
If you knew how it would end?
Are you watching over us
Like everybody says?
Who will give the perfect hugs
That let me fall apart
Then put me back together
Like it never happened at all?
I’m feeling pretty lost these days
I wish I had some answers
To get me through the hardest days
But these questions are left unanswered…


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22 Replies to “Unanswered Questions”

  1. I’m sorry about the loss of your father. I lost a brother back in 2005 and I know how it leaves an empty place in your life. Your poem really speaks of that here. I pray that things get easier for you as you move forward. Take care.

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  2. I’ve also lost my father when I was 17. That was 6 years ago. I am 23, now. I empathize with you, greatly.

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  3. This poem speaks straight to my heart. My deepest condolences to you and your family for your loss. You can see your father again in Paradise when his name is called to rise again in the resurrection (John 5:28,29). Until that promise is realized, may Jehovah, the God of all comfort, help you endure this difficult time.

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  4. Thank you for this poem. It captured so well the emotion I have felt after losing several loved ones in my life over the past few years. It brought me to tears. My condolences as you grieve.

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    1. Thank you for your comment. Indeed keeping things can be destructive but not always, but I have my blog as well as friends and family 💜

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  5. Dear Friend, I just read your post, and I am so so sorry to hear about this. Life is full of many questions yet unanswered. I understand the frustration that this situation must be causing you at this time. I know that no one can replace your father, because you love him truly and deeply. However, I would like you to know that you have a heavenly Father in God. God is ready to be your father, and he is willing to be faithful, and to remain truthful at all times. You can seek his help and his counsel, and he will be with you every step of the way. If you do not yet have a relationship with God, I will suggest that you begin one. God is able to help. I am so so sorry to hear about this. If you ever need to talk, I am here for you. May God’s blessings be with you, Stay strong.

    If you want to know about God in more detail, you can find further information here https://christcenteredruminations.wordpress.com/2018/10/23/a-few-things-that-i-have-learned-about-god/ And Here https://christcenteredruminations.wordpress.com/2018/08/29/how-to-build-a-relationship-with-god/

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