If jumping to conclusions was a sport, I would be competing in the Olympics. See you all next year in Tokyo 😉 !
When something bad happens like I make a mistake or I’m having an argument with somebody, my anxiety launches me to the worst possible conclusion. I get hurt, put on my jet pack and zoom off far away from reality!
My anxiety has always influenced my reactions to something that has either hurt or scared me. It takes me from the actual situation and sucks me into my mind where it tells me that something horrible is about to happen.
“Megan, you’re so stupid, why would you even say that? Everyone now knows how dumb you are.”
“Megan, why would you do that? Now they hate you! They never want to speak to you or see you again.”
When I get like this I hide. I hide away in my room if I’m at home, I hide in my office at work or hiding can be me not speaking to anybody for a while. I do this out of guilt and fear that everybody hates me.
I also jump to the worst possible possibility when I’m reading too deeply into something. My mind tells me that “they’re doing that because nobody wants to be near you” or “this is happening because you’re a terrible person that nobody likes.”
I know it’s all rooted in anxiety which intensifying the fears I’ve held on to all my life. But when you but an ant under a magnifying glass, it can look pretty damn big.
In therapy I’m working on not jumping to conclusion so fast. I’m trying to take time in my thought process and attempt to assess reality (which can be really difficult).
If you struggle with jumping to conclusions, is there any tips that you have on how to work through them and return to reality?
You are all such strong individuals, I love reading the posts on this blog. It absolutely makes me feel less alone in my mental illness.