Encouraging Myself Before I Snap

I’m having a very difficult day today.

My anxiety levels are high while my depression is begging for me to crawl into bed where I can fall apart.

Since my iPhone woke me up this morning I have wanted to go back to sleep. I considered not getting up, to call in sick so that I could lay in bed all day. But then I remembered…

I had a beautiful quiche I bought at a local coffee shop in the mini fridge at work.

I said to myself, “I can’t let that quiche go to waste. I paid good money for that!”

So I told myself that if I go to work I can try to stay until 12:30 (basically half of my day) and eat my quiche.

This actually worked! I got ready as usual and continued to encourage myself throughout the day. I have been saying, “Ok, can I make it for another 5 minutes? How about another hour?”

It’s past 2 p.m. here on the East Coast of America so I’ve stayed well beyond my original goal. My goal right now is to make it until 2:30. From there I’ll evaluate if I can finish my work day.

Damn my therapist is going to be proud of me!

For when I go home I have no idea what is going to happen. I have been in control all day but I don’t know if I can prevent myself from having a meltdown.

I hope that this post helps somebody out there! Please leave me a comment of what you do to overcome the desires of your mental illness!

Mental illnesses can be so loud and have such a tight grip on us. It takes a shit load of strength to surmount the difficulties a mental illness brings.

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23 Replies to “Encouraging Myself Before I Snap”

    1. Thank you, Nova! 🙂 It actually turned out to be a very lovely quiche. I would say the second best I’ve ever had. Hahaha!

  1. I can relate to this on so many levels. I feel like I have my mental health under control at the moment. This week I was very close to a panic attack all because my outfit didn’t match the weather and I was afraid I was going to be late.

    When I look back at it I want to laugh but it just goes to show how the little things tend to bother us. When I feel overwhelmed I usually write down my thoughts and feeling s in my journal, I color in my adult coloring book and try my best to do it outside my room 💕

    Good for you for making it through the day 👏🏻thanks for sharing

    1. Looking back on anxious thoughts with a clear mind really can be funny sometimes. I’m sad you were close to a panic attack though! Thank you so much for your kind words, Robyne!

  2. It is the little successes that help me get through a tough day where depression tells me to stay in bed. Like your quiche, one morning I heard the coffee maker brewing coffee. I had set the timer the night before. I thought about the special coffee I had put in it the night before and how it would taste. It was enough to get me out of bed — enough to beat back the depression that wanted me to stay in bed. Once I was up and drinking coffee, then I thought I might as well get ready for work. For me it’s those small successes that help, rather than trying to take on the day all at once. Your quiche story is a good example of small things that can help us overcome. Thanks for sharing.

    1. I love that story! It was meant to be that you put your special coffee in that night and set the timer. Thank you for sharing your story too, 140!

  3. I commend you for being able to get out of bed and actually making it to work. There’s days when I don’t make it out of my car and I just end up driving back home because self doubt takes over.
    Keep trying. You’re not alone.

    1. Thank you for your comment and reminding me that we are all in this boat together, Kiera. Also I love your name! I hope that you keep trying as well and have the strength to make it to work soon.

  4. This is a great post. I’ve been trying to find ways to coax myself out of bed in the morning besides my partner continuing to come in and tell me it’s time to get up (which just makes me want to pull the covers over my head). Lately I’ve been promising myself a half hour with the Times crossword if I can get up. My partner does make me coffee for when I do manage to struggle into the kitchen, which also helps. But the quiche in the fridge technique sounds very promising for getting to work.

    1. I’m glad this inspired you! Mornings can be so hellish. I’m glad to hear you have such a supportive partner! Thank you for commenting, Elisabethel!

  5. Sometimes I remind myself that I ‘get to go to work’ rather than ‘have to go to work’ and that makes me feel grateful. Sometimes I say ‘I expect to get this job done’ and that can motivate me. I guess a promice of tasty lunch could help too! Well done Megan, you came out on top!

    1. Thank you so much for your encouragement! It can make you feel so good seeing the time go by and that you can make it through a difficult day without needing to leave wherever you are.

  6. Writing helps quite a lot. Nowadays I am having the highest ever level of unproductive stretches. It’s making me doubtful about all my merits and even my mental health conditions as well. Usually a little binging helps me get back. But this time they are getting like unhealthy addiction: binging out of stress, then feeling guilty and stop, then getting stressed with continuous guilt and binging again… It’s bad. So right now, only writing. That too not regularly. And sometimes tiny goals, micro goals actually.. Like move the body and get up, then stand on the floor, then pick up the bottle and drink some water ( and a little well-done at this point) … Ugh😟

    1. It sucks that you’re struggling so much lately. Productivity does not measure your worth. The tiniest goals can get be the encouragement that really drives us forward. With binging, have you spoken to a therapist or doctor about that? Maybe they would be able to provide some insight to help with that.
      I hope things start to look up, Breeta!

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