I’m having a very difficult day today.
My anxiety levels are high while my depression is begging for me to crawl into bed where I can fall apart.
Since my iPhone woke me up this morning I have wanted to go back to sleep. I considered not getting up, to call in sick so that I could lay in bed all day. But then I remembered…
I had a beautiful quiche I bought at a local coffee shop in the mini fridge at work.
I said to myself, “I can’t let that quiche go to waste. I paid good money for that!”
So I told myself that if I go to work I can try to stay until 12:30 (basically half of my day) and eat my quiche.
This actually worked! I got ready as usual and continued to encourage myself throughout the day. I have been saying, “Ok, can I make it for another 5 minutes? How about another hour?”
It’s past 2 p.m. here on the East Coast of America so I’ve stayed well beyond my original goal. My goal right now is to make it until 2:30. From there I’ll evaluate if I can finish my work day.
Damn my therapist is going to be proud of me!
For when I go home I have no idea what is going to happen. I have been in control all day but I don’t know if I can prevent myself from having a meltdown.
I hope that this post helps somebody out there! Please leave me a comment of what you do to overcome the desires of your mental illness!
Mental illnesses can be so loud and have such a tight grip on us. It takes a shit load of strength to surmount the difficulties a mental illness brings.