I’m starting to see some negative characteristics in myself. Recently feelings of jealousy have been becoming more and more prominent in my mind.
My jealously is fueled by fear.
The fear of being forgotten. The fear that I won’t be loved anymore. That I will eventually fade from his mind and heart because he will be focused on spending time with friends that he cares about more than me.
I fear that the more time he spends with his friends, the less he will love me.
My anxiety is telling me all of these things despite reality. I know he loves me, I see it everyday!
I know that the tighter I hold on, he will feel suffocated. He will want to push me away instead which is the exact opposite of what I want.
The last thing I want to be is a toxic person to one of the people I love most.
I don’t know how to get rid of these jealous feelings, I’ve never felt this way before.
I want him to be happy in all aspects of life. And I’m not just writing that because I’m about to share this with a bunch of people; I truly mean it.
Have you experienced jealously in a long term relationship or in a friendship? How do/did you cope with it? How were you able to overcome your feelings of jealously?