today i sit at home thinking about all of the things that i have done wrong. that’s when i realized that there are a lot of holes in my memory. i have never had a great memory like a lot of people thought that i had. i frequently forget what peoples names are unless i look them up in my phone or at work i look them up through our system. so i have had a rough few years. my hours have been slim to none. this week i only work 7.5 hours. my checks are getting to be small and now i have really needed help financially. although also this week i have a meeting with someone from the local disability network.
i am working towards getting SSI. I have been working towards getting SSI for a while now but to afraid to apply for it. some things that really prevent me from applying is the fact that i have been denied for it in the past.