I am in a strange place in my life at the moment. My advocacy for the longest time has been to share my story. I am currently in the editing part of the publishing process with my new publisher. My goal for so long when it came to advocating for mental health was to get to this point.
And now? I am not sure where to go from here. I had this grand idea that I could launch my Patron with quick success, start working towards starting creating a brand–The Bipolar Writer. I finally found a logo that I love and it could mean merchandise in the future. There is my idea of creating The Bipolar Writer podcast, and I even had a fellow mental health advocate willing to work with me.
Then I got busy. Advocacy took a backseat to finals for my graduate classes. I began to write less here, and many of my posts lately have been partly desperation pleas to help me get my Patreon numbers up. I feel the pressure of having to continue to take things to the next level and indeed keep my mental health advocacy at the highest level.
I know I should be elated that my book is getting published and I am excited at the prospect.
But, I started this blog to start something more significant and while my contributors have taken this blog to new heights, I feel as I have personally failed my fellow mental health suffers because I am not continuing to help end the stigma. I feel as if I need to always be changing the game because I took on that responsibility when I made my story open to the world.
I don’t know where I go from here or even if this blog will survive much longer. Lately, no matter what I do out numbers are lower than they were the year before, and we set some fantastic records last year at this time. I just feel that nothing is going right and it is because I am not here every day trying to save the world. It sounds silly, but I always thought all of this was leading to bigger things. Now I am not sure I really am an advocate.
How do I become a better mental health advocate?
I just don’t know anymore. Anyway, thank you for allowing me to rant. I will try to write more informative mental health posts in the coming weeks. I would love to hear from you, my fellow mental health sufferers, what you think I can do to be a better mental health advocate.
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