It’s all about the flash,
the flash of the past,
the flash of what was
the flash of what could have been.
The flash of dreams you want to come true,
dreams that would make your life better.
You know it.
You can feel it,
so you pray
and wait
and dream some more
for a better life.
Then you dream for better flashes,
flashes that tell you you are good.
flashes that tell you it will get better,
flashes that tell you people care about you,
flashes that tell you people love you,
flashes that tell you you will make it again
because you did it before.
Then more flashes asking why
and when will life get better,
flashes of other people’s lives
that seem so much better,
so much easier
than yours.
Then you just pray–
pray for acceptance of what is
and acceptance of what was.
Pray for peace
and patience
for your faith to become stronger.
You keep trying and fighting,
praying you will feel better soon
and then
you just pray.
Pray for happines
and peace
to come
again.
This is what recovery is
over
and
over
again.
I keep typing until I feel better.
It hasn’t worked yet
but I will keep trying,
fighting,
typing
woking through it.
Typing to feel,
to love
and live.
I will make it again.
I have made it before
and I will make it again.
Type, type, type
to feel real.
Type away my sadness.
Type, type, type.
The sadness–
it is still there,
so I type.
I type some more
and pray for happiness and love
to fill my soul,
for loneliness to leave me.
I will make it.
Recovery is possible.
Remember.
I am living proof.
I will never forget.
I am living proof.
So I keep living
and fighting
always.
I am ALIVE.
I am breathing.
I am a survivor.
I am ALIVE
to enjoy
the beauty
of living.
~Written by Susan Walz
This is why I write and blog. Sometimes I know I need something, so I just type–to feel, to feel real. Thanks for reading. I hope you can relate to this.
Keep fighting, feeling and being.
Sometimes all we can do is “be.” Just “be.” Give yourself credit for accepting when you need to just “be.” Today is a day I just need to “be” so I am ‘being” for a little while until I can “be” more than I am now–until I can feel more like me–the better me.
All of the “me’s” I have are okay
and all of the “you’s” you have are okay too.
Some days are like that. We need to give ourselves a day to just “be.
BE all that you can BE.
BE the best you
you can BE.
Much love and hugs, Sue
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Wow! So beautiful! I can relate to this so much! Thanks for sharing!!
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Thank you. I am so happy you could relate to this. I write and hope others feel the same and hope my words are relatable. Thank you for reading and for your great feedback. I appreciate it grealty–especially today as today is one of those days. I hope your day is more than a just “be” day. Have a great weekend. Hugs, Sue
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I’m not crying, you’re crying. 😩♥️
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So beautiful!
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Thank you for reading and I’m very happy you liked it. Thanks for replying. Much love and hugs.
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