How I have been

So my doctor said I could start on CBD oil. I’m really proud of myself for not taking no as an answer and doing my research on it myself. If I hadn’t insisted on trying it i wouldn’t be feeling better and able to write more. i would be trying to keep level headed during a panic episode and it would not be good.

I am trying to keep level headed a work because i feel like I might be losing my job. I am doing my best to keep my head down and my spirits high because i need this job. Yes I may not be doing well at it but I am trying. I can say that but a lot of people can’t.

I’m not sure what people will or have said about me behind my back but I am starting to not care about what people think about me, because it does no good thinking about what people will or have said about you. Plus I am not one to judge people usually but lately i have been judging. I’m not proud of it but at least i can say that i try not to. I feel bad when I judge people.

I hate being judged and yet lately i have been judging people who don’t deserve to be judged. I’m trying to be better than most people but I know that will never be the case for me. I hope that you all are feling okay and if no that’s okay too.

6 Replies to “How I have been”

  1. It’s hard not to judge sometimes, the difference is you are trying not to. That’s the best thing any of us can do.

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    1. thank you for these words. i know that every one is trying to not do that.

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  2. SENDING YOU LOVE AND GOOD VIBES

    If you need CBD oils- I have products that you will LOVE. I use the CBD bath bombs for anxiety. I use my CBD Vape Juice for anxiety and depression!!!!! I would love to see you happier and feel the relief i have.

    Have a wonderful day, and good luck with your blogging venture. I hope it’s an outlet that finds you happiness and focus.

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    1. thank you. this decision was made by my doctor, me, my fiancee, and my counselor; because my anxiety had gotten pretty bad again. i don’t feel like having another panic attack at work.

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      1. I totally understand!! I’m praying for positive vibes and love and happiness to overflow for you!!!

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  3. Hey, best wishes to the new treatment working for you. Maybe now is a good time to search for another gig?

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