So my doctor said I could start on CBD oil. I’m really proud of myself for not taking no as an answer and doing my research on it myself. If I hadn’t insisted on trying it i wouldn’t be feeling better and able to write more. i would be trying to keep level headed during a panic episode and it would not be good.
I am trying to keep level headed a work because i feel like I might be losing my job. I am doing my best to keep my head down and my spirits high because i need this job. Yes I may not be doing well at it but I am trying. I can say that but a lot of people can’t.
I’m not sure what people will or have said about me behind my back but I am starting to not care about what people think about me, because it does no good thinking about what people will or have said about you. Plus I am not one to judge people usually but lately i have been judging. I’m not proud of it but at least i can say that i try not to. I feel bad when I judge people.
I hate being judged and yet lately i have been judging people who don’t deserve to be judged. I’m trying to be better than most people but I know that will never be the case for me. I hope that you all are feling okay and if no that’s okay too.