The Journey Continues

My latest appointment with my psychiatrist has left me again with one medication not working and the start of another.

For those who don’t know, I have been struggling between the high manic sides of my Bipolar 1, to my extreme depression side. It has been an interesting roller coaster that has been a staple in my life since late May. Right now I am still dealing with depression in my own way and life is always moving forward.

I am starting on a new medication–Vraylar. It is supposed to be good at balancing the manic and depressive sides of my Bipolar 1. I am hopeful like always that this will be the time that things change! I am also weary because this is the fourth medication change in 2019, and nothing is stopping the ups and downs. I need balance again if I am going to be able to be open to finding work in education this fall.

Everything else is good. Clonazepam is regularly working, and I have had, for the most part, my anxiety and panic disorder under control. It is all about working with my therapist with coping mechanisms for the rest of the year.

I am working on my sleep as well, and I will be seeing my sleep doctor finding out more about my sleep study/sleep apnea results and so that should help with the sleeping issues I have been experiencing. I have thought the root of my many issues is due to insomnia and sleep apnea, and to solve one of these issues will be great for my mental health.

Life continues on. We keep going, and the journey is about moving forward. In two weeks I will have an update on how this medication is working or not working.

Always Keep Fighting


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15 Replies to “The Journey Continues”

  1. I’ve had great success with Vraylar and I hope for the same success for you. I’ve been on it for , I think, two years or so, have been on a few doses as we have needed to adjust as things come and go, but it has greatly helped the extremes.
    I also have sleep apnea and having that under control and under a doctors supervision in conjunction with the meds has improved my quality of living.
    Rooting for you!


  2. Good luck, I hope it helps. The sleep thing will probably make a huge difference, too, if you can get that under control. Regular, restful sleep can at least help alleviate and soften symptoms even if it can’t make them go away.


      1. At least you realize it’s a problem and are trying to do something about it. I think a lot of people are unaware it’s an issue (16 years of chronic sleep deprivation before I learned it’s a really bad thing.)


      2. My therapist has been on me about working on this issue. She believes that with better sleep care things will improve (also the right medication and therapy.) but I need, according to her, to work on my sleep issues before working on my panic disorder issues.


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  4. It takes a while to get the concoction figured out. I pray this one works well for you! Remember to have patience with yourself.
    Best wishes.


  5. I agree with previous comments about sleep. It’s such a crucial part of brain health. I didn’t realise quite how much until I started researching it. All roads are leading me to gut health though – sleep, brain, hormones, the whole lot. Have you considered doing some sort of gut bacteria rebalancing? I’m still struggling with the discipline of it but can honestly say, when I fill myself full of green smoothies, fresh juices and whole foods, my sleep improves and so does my energy and mental health. I haven’t experienced the highs and lows to the same extent as you but I still think it might be an avenue worth exploring. If you’re interested, let me know and I’ll send you s list of some of the better books and videos I’ve found on the subject. Best wishes on your new meditation. I really hope it helps.


  6. I’m really rooting that you make it I don’t know if that medication works I’ve never been on it. I know I’ve tried 1 million others though. It was a babbles seems to have success with it. So here’s hoping. I know, I really know how hard it is to see the bright side but I promise you there’s always another moment of happy right after that moment of sucky


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