I’ve Been Gone, And I am Sorry

If you have been looking for The Bipolar Writer or James Edgar Skye, he has been on a bizarre roller coaster that has been rough on him, and so he has been MIA.

It started with a tough stretch of depression that lasted close to two months. Then I got bronchitis just as I was getting out of the depression that put me down for close to a month. I am just now this week getting over the lingering cough that I thought was never going away (it is still lingering but its almost gone!)

In the middle of all this, I am first and foremost a student, and that takes precedence over everything. School is so important to me as I work towards my master’s degree, and nothing can get in the way. I finally got the first concept for my book cover, which looks fantastic, and I am almost to publishing! Life still moves forward even if I have felt so down lately.

The upside of all this chaos in my life is that I got a chance to take a step back from my latest novel and now I have fresh eyes and a clearer mind when it comes to looking at editing my fantasy fiction novel The Rise of the Nephilim. I plan on getting back on track on my writing which includes writing more of my thoughts here on the blog.

What I am excited most is that my lifelong dream to become a published author is right there, and I have been working on the better part of two years to make my memoir a reality. I really feel once it is published, I can move on to publishing my fictional works, which has been the dream as long as I can remember.

I am hopeful but wary. I am getting close to the time of year that the seasonal component of my depression brings out the worst depression of my year. It has already been a tough year in the depression department, and I continue to isolate due to my anxiety. Recently, my diagnosis was added with something new–panic disorder. My panic attacks have been down the last few weeks, but it is something that I need to work with my therapist.

I will be relying on this blog and my fellow mental illness sufferers in the coming weeks and months because things have not gone according to plan in 2019, and I want the last three months of the year to end on a high note. Things can always go up, and it is not like this year has been all bad, I wrote a 213,000-word fictional novel in less than four months. I wrote a short novella around 35,000 words that is one of the best short pieces I have ever written. In the last year of my master’s program, I have maintained a 4.0 average. Life can still continue through the chaos.

Lastly, I do have some news to share but that will be in a separate blog post this week, it is exciting news. With that said, thank you for joining me. I hope to see more of you in the coming weeks.

Always Keep Fighting

James

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19 Replies to “I’ve Been Gone, And I am Sorry”

  1. Welcome back ! So you maintained a 4.0 average while producing two writing pieces? You’re killing it ! Anxiety sucks, I know I have it. You have a lot of success here to though, hang in there, one day at a time.

  2. Depression depletes energy levels and you have to triage the most important stuff. Sounds like you’re doing the best you can with a lot on your plate, and I hope you’re not beating yourself up too much for the stuff you can’t get to, yet.

  3. I’m glad you’re putting your health and health and school first, that should always be your top priority. Wishing you nothing but the best, you’ll get through this.

  4. No need to apologize. It sounds like you’ve been busy with lots of things (and as a previous commenter noted: “killing it!”) While blogging is certainly a useful platform, others things will often take precedence. Glad you’re feeling better and ready to take on the next three months. Can’t wait to read your published works!

  5. oh my friend, this is all to relatable! So happy you are back. So happy you are looking towards a positive future. so happy you are on this trail to a master’s degree with me. Cheers to us!

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