Searching for Balance

Sorry I haven’t been so active here on the Bipolar Writer as I normally am. My life has been so out of whack that I can’t seem to find balance.

I have been coping with this imbalance by binge eating/overeating on a regular basis. Once I open my mouth, I have no idea when I will reach my limit. For the past three days I have felt incredibly bloated because of it which, of course, makes me feel depressed and critical of myself.

Each day I get angry with myself, saying, “Why can’t you just stop, Megan!? You’re not hungry, why are you eating again?”

The stresses of life have been chipping away at my mental health. I get home from work and am immediately overwhelmed by everything that I have to do. The daily chores get done but I feel like I can never get to the random tasks like pulling weeds outside or finally organizing my closet.

There aren’t enough hours in the day to work full time and keep my house the way I want to. Because I go nonstop after I get home from work, I feel like I don’t get to enjoy any Megan time. I want to be able to write again, go to the gym, do yoga with my cats and not worry that I have chores to do.

My anxiety kicks into gear when I start thinking about this sort of stuff.

How do you find balance in life? If you have achieved balance, do you have any good tips?

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17 Replies to “Searching for Balance”

    1. THANK YOU, MUSE!!! I appreciate your words very much. I have a habit of apologizing for every little thing.

  1. One day at a time… The one thing I work on relentlessly is increasing sleep. More Sleep = better mental outcomes for me. I’ve yet to achieve the balance I desire but there are days where I get great sleep and I feel fantastic.

    1. Sleep is so important! I rarely get a full time of sleep because of my pets. Either my dog wakes me up at 3:30 to got to the bathroom or my cats are running around. It’s quite annoying. Thank you for commenting, Karac!

  2. Um, no one actually can sustain true balance in life! It’s like whack-a-mole…you deal with one aspect & another pops up. If you are getting to your daily chores, you’re doing better than most. But it’s 100% okay to leave a few things less than perfect to carve out some time to take care of yourself. ❤️

    1. I love the analogy that life is whack-a-mole! It honestly is exactly like that. You think you have hit your mole on the head with your mallet then POP another one is there. Thank you for commenting!

  3. First of all accept that you are doing an amazing job by getting up and going to work.
    Try not to look at the things you’d like to get done as a list. You will be over whelmed.
    Choose one thing.
    Like sorting your closet.
    Put on some fav music decide how long your going to spend then enjoy doing it.
    If your decluttering.
    Decide to choose just 2 things a day then put them in a bag and take to the charity shop at the end of the week.
    You’ve got this remember your amazing Megan x

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    1. Your words are so encouraging, Raven! You’re right making it a long to-do list makes it feel never-ending! Thank you for commenting!

  4. It is so important to take time to do something you love. It keeps you going on with the rest. My mother told me “don’t worry, the elves are not going to clean while you are away, it will still be there when you get back.”

    1. Hahahaha your mom has a funny sense of humor! She’s right though, it won’t go anywhere while one rests. Thank you for commenting!

  5. No need to apologize! The best thing to do for yourself and others is to help yourself first. I hope you can find that balance soon, as I know it can be very difficult with an overwhelming amount of responsibilities

  6. Acceptance is the key to equilibrium – accepting that you cannot do, have, be everything. Acceptance that there are limitations to everything and especially people. Acceptance.

    1. Wow thank you for this!! You’re so right! I have been struggling with being everything but it feels impossible. Thank you for commenting!

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