This is my second week at my new job and I am struggling to find my place there. During my first week everyone was friendly so I used a ton of energy interacting with them. I was exhausted at the end of each day because of it.
Now that it’s my second week I am trying to figure out how I can fit in despite my anxiety. Being new makes me even more nervous to speak to anybody. Today I couldn’t stop thinking that nobody liked me, that I won’t be good at my job and because my desk is in the basement office, I will be forgotten. I’ve already heard from multiple people that “they forgot I was here.” I thought, “Wow, great, cool, thanks for telling me how forgettable I am.”
At my last job I kept to myself most of the time. I didn’t talk to my coworkers very much and really only made connections with my supervisor. Whenever I was at staff meetings I rarely spoke unless I was spoken to or needed information from someone.
This is what I am accustomed to so I don’t know how to navigate this new environment. I don’t want to come off as antisocial or rude but I don’t know how to be my actual amiable self.
That is one of the interesting parts about anxiety, you keep to yourself because you’re anxious but people perceive it as stuck up.
Today I only had a conversation with one person. It was a really good one though! She is only training at my office so I will probably never see her again after her training is complete. But every time I consider opening my mouth to speak, I close it and scurry like a startled bunny back to my desk and put in my headphones.
How do you adjust to new situations? How do you put anxiety to the side?