On December 15, 2019, at 9:45am, I lost my mother. This place, this blog, has always been the place where I go when I need support. I always wanted to help others, and my mother was a significant part of the reason I am going to keep this blog. Still, I will be writing about that in the future. Just know that while her brain damage was extensive, she was feeling any pain when she passed, and she had her family around her for support.
What I need most is support from the mental illness community. When my grandfather passed, it destroyed me, and I was close to my grandfather and even closer to my mom, she is the only reason. The Bipolar Writer and my pen name James Edgar Skye exists, why I am who I’ve become, it was my mom.
GoFundMe for my Mom’s Funeral Expenses
What I am asking is for support emotionally if you can. I will, of course, be linking my GoFundMe page here, but right now, I am a mess. Depression has already sunk in, and I have no idea what my life looks like without my mother in it because her stroke and passing were so sudden and unexpected. My family is already feeling the financial burdens that will be happening throughout the foreseeable future. Well, wishes are incredible, and if you can help, thank you from my entire family and from the bottom of my heart. I hate asking, but right now, it’s an impossible situation. My GoFundMe page is under my real name, so don’t get distracted if it’s not under James Edgar Skye. I had friends and family making their contributions, and some strangers. Please keep me grounded as a struggle to figure out things. With much love,
James
I’m so sorry for your loss. You do have the support of this community and can lean on any of us ❤
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Thank you so much. Its going to be hard. I have never leaned on the community and I need them right now. Its great that you reached out that means the world to me.
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I’m so sorry about your loss 🙏😢 I’m here for you and sending you all my love xxx
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Thank you. That means the world to me. I am going to be suffering for a while but this place will always be here, because my mother would have wanted that, she loved this site and I promised that I would keep it.
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Sorry to hear of your loss. Nothing anyone can say or do will numb the pain any but I imagine the whole community and your thousands of followers will be thinking of you and your family.
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That means the world to me, it really does! I will survive this.
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You will. If you ever need anything, feel free to get in touch. Sending all the love in the world to you and your family.
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Sorry for your Loss Prayers up during this difficult time 🙏 your mum will be Proud of you always
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Thank you. That means a lot.
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So sorry for your loss…
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My condolences for your loss.
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Thank you Ashley. It means so much.
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Sending my condolences…😢🙏🏻.
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Oh wow, I am so very sorry for your loss. I had a horrible foreboding feeling reading your last few posts and was hoping I was wrong. I wish I could say something to comfort you, but I know that right now there is likely nothing that could. Just know I am thinking of you and your family.
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Keeping my family in your thoughts will be amazing and mean the world to me.
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🖤🖤🖤
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My heart goes out to you. My father passed in July, and I am still far from okay. I just keep telling myself that he would have wanted me to go on, that he would have wanted me to be happy, that he believed in my strength. The days ahead will not be easy, but I want you to go on; I want you to be happy, and I believe in your strength.
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Thats how I feel on day one. I am not sure it will ever go away but it helps that the community is behind me. Thank you for sharing your own experience it helps so much. I have my mother’s stength and that will help throught the next few days, then weeks and months. Its just like getting better with a mental illness.
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The loss of a mother is different than any other loss. Yours has been there for you through all the trials of your life. Your mother wanted nothing but the best for you. Grief will come crashing in at times. It is good and OK to cry, feel anger, and many other emotions. Grief can’t be denied. You must go through it. You can’t push it down or ignore it. That will leave you damaged. Let the grief out. You can live with it and keep on going. That’s what your mother wants.
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I understand. I am going to grieve. I can’t move on until I do that.
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So sorry to hear this news man. You’ve done well to write. I support you. Do what you need to to get through.
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I know what it’s like losing a parent…it’s extremely devastating…and I feel so sad for
you …it’s a terribly horrible thing to have to go through, If you want to read my blog post of how I dealt with my father’s loss..to help you..you’re more than welcome 🙏🏻 your mother is and was the most important person throughout your life… and I suppose that’s it’s very different from my loss…but I truly offer support…because I totally understand… ❤️….she only wanted the best for you..grief takes time to heal….take as much time as you need too.. take care..
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I’m so sorry to here about your mother. I have never commented on your blog before but I just wanted to say I really appreciate you being a writer of such an important topic: mental health. All the best, and feel all your feelings and know that its okay to hurt. Love, Emma
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I’m so sorry for your lost! If you need anything like someone to talk to or so, don’t be afraid to reach out!
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I am so sorry to hear about your mom! Especially coming upon a special time of the year.
Please know I am praying for you and your family!
God loves you! And He loves your mom! ❤
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I am terribly sorry for your loss, James. We will be here for any continued support that you may need. Please always remember to reach out.
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Will be thinking of you.
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I’m so sorry!
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Stay strong and be kind to yourself. Sending love
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My sincere condolences. You have all my support❤️
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You have my deepest condolences…prayers for you and your family. 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
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Thank you Mya. That means a lot to me. We are doing our best at this point.
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James, I am so deeply sorry for your loss. Your heartbreak is completely natural and I think so is your feelings of overwhelming depression. If you want to talk more, please message me. I’m happy to IM or video chat if you need it, I am absolutely serious. The darkest period of my depression was triggered when I lost my grandfather almost 4 years ago, and last New Year’s I lost my closest uncle. Your experience is really resonating with me, and if you just need someone to talk I’m happy to listen. Take care, I know it is hard right now to keep track of your needs, but you must do your best to keep your needs met (I’m talking sleep, drinking water, eating, taking meds, etc). Sending you my condolences from Canada. ❤
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Tbis right here made me feel so much better. I will take you up on the talking. It would be nice to learn your perspective on this because I am not doing well at all. I will message you from your site if that is okay.
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So….so sorry about this,may God grant her eternal place of rest.
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Here for you James!!… you can write me: jeffandtami@truevine.net
or call: 806-781-0810
Psalm 34:18
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
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Thank you for this. I am not quite ready to talk to others. I will be talking to my professional people. It means the world that you reached out.
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Heartfelt condolences
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Hope you’re all getting through. Merry Christmas 🎄👊
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I haven’t been blogging for over two months because my life has been so busy. I thought I would see how you were doing and take a peak at your blog. I am heartbroken to read about your mom’s passing. I am so very very sorry. I cannot imagine what you are going through. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers for sure. Much love, many blessings and huge hugs. Sue
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