The Effects of the Coronavirus: the Issue for The Bipolar Writer – Anxiety

I Have Horrible Anxiety About Large Crowds

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One of the dreaded things about the coronavirus for me is not quarantining from society. I feel like I have been training for this my entire life. I revel in being alone. It gives me more time to write and work on my school work. The only thing affecting me outside of anxiety is that my freelance work has taken a significant hit in the number of jobs I am picking up over the last few weeks.

For me, it is the overcrowded stores that make my anxiety fly high when I have to go out in the world for the necessities of life. I planned ahead of time to do my monthly shopping on Sunday at around six in the morning when the stores open. I am usually that way, only shopping once a month, with an occasional trip to the store for water. It is ironic now that water is in demand, and the stores never seem to have it for long.

Crowded places give me fits of anxiety before I even leave my house, and that’s during regular times. It was mind-boggling to see people at 5 am at my local Costco standing in the rain at five in the morning. Its madness because of the fact that it is happening every day at every Costco across the county. I don’t even go to Costco for the last month. All over the world, the shelves are empty of water, toilet paper, and hand sanitizer. (I actually stock hand sanitizer, I have a mild case of OCD where I wash my hands about 20 times a day. Soap and hand sanitizer is always within reach.) But this worries me. Is this our new normal?

Our Society is Changing in Front of Our Eyes

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What is disturbing to me is that this picture doesn’t represent our supermarkets anymore. The selves are getting overwhelmed with panicky people buying everything in sight. When the demand is so high, it is those of us that can’t handle spending hours in a store that suffers. There is not a shortage of supplies, but rather people are reacting and not thinking about everyone needs supplies.

I am not saying that my struggles should be above anyone else’s, and except for distilled water, which I need for my CPAP machine, I got most of my supplies for a few weeks. What makes me mad is the people that we forget our elders. The ones on fixed incomes that can’t buy ten packs of water and ten packs of toilet paper. Our elders are the most susceptible to this virus, and it sucks we are, as a society, are hoarding everything we can get our hands-on. For the last week, I haven’t seen a pack toilet paper in a store when I go, lucky I bought from Costco weeks ago and with only two people in my house, there is plenty.

I implore those that read this post to think about others who can’t go to the store everyday.

I am by no means trivializing or downplaying the pandemic that is the coronavirus. It is real, and it can be scary. But we are not at a point where supply is an issue. What is the problem is overbuying to a point where shelves are empty because we can only put so much in trucks. I get it. We may be heading towards that point. I will take isolating from society with open arms, but there has to be a point where it is just too much my friends.

I have faith in our society that we will figure out the folly of the crazy buying of ten packs of toilet paper from Costco. That we will think of all the citizens as a whole and educate ourselves about the coronavirus. I love to sit at Starbucks twice a week to drink coffee and write. Right now, coffee places are pick up and go at the moment because of restrictions on gathering of ten or more people. I will make that sacrifice. Yet at stores, we are gathering by the hundreds to do the exact thing the CDC says is one way to spread the virus. Some food for thought.

Always Keep Fighting


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26 Replies to “The Effects of the Coronavirus: the Issue for The Bipolar Writer – Anxiety”

  1. Amen brother, I love how you said it’s like I have been training for this my whole life.

    Since I am the same way, I could live alone for years and it not bother me.

    Really the only companionship I desire is female companionship as in just living with one so when it comes to all these group outings, plus events being cancelled and frowned upon?

    I am almost in heaven since now people do not expect me to go outside to find work or meet my welfare workers let alone being told to go out and mingle with friends more or whatever.

    I enjoy seeing people physically at times but basically once in a blue moon, the rest of the time?

    I am more than happy just seeing them through a screen, even if only text on screen.

    I dunno from personal experience each person you see regularly?

    Is just another headache added to the pile and I only desire to handle so much these days.

    I live with family due to poverty and mental illness giving me job sustainability issues so most days I feel like shooting all of them just to have some peace finally.

    Except I am not a psychopath so I keep firing at my WordPress wall in hopes of tunnelling out through there.

    In which case with Coronavirus spreading?

    Government and Doctors can look at my issue and needs while setting up everything online from here and there, unless a company desires my skills then that’s also another option.

    Either way steady as she goes since I believe my efforts are working, slowly but surely.

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    1. I am sorry your dealing with all this. Keep writing and try to keep the thoughts positive. If you need to talk reach out. I am always available and my info is on my website. It’s a tough time but I have faith we will figure things out.

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      1. Thanks and likewise plus I know we will.

        I just want people to know it’s ok to feel whatever feelings and express them.

        Just don’t act on all of them regardless of how hard it is.

        Since like you expressing about figuring things out, this simple data from this conversation right here shows that at least you and I are trying to figure things out for sure.

        Confirmation is a beaitful thing that way.

        Anyways Thanks again, take care. 🙂

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  2. This is a super intelligent post that properly accounts for the disease at hand but also thoughtfully and respectfully points out multiple big problems with our approach that we can contribute to solving. Thank you so much, James.

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    1. I always speak from the heart. I hope my words reach people and understand the realities that some face. Thank you for taking a moment to read my blog post.


  3. Well said!! Being an extrovert is hard during a stay-at-home time.. all the hype gives me anxiety though.. so it’s hard either way.. we’ll get through it!

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  4. The virus doesn’t bother me as much as people panicking and stock-piling on daily goods, leaving many families little to survive on.

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  5. This post is so relatable. I commend you for pointing out the selfishness of the hoarders and the impact it leaves on the rest of society, particularly the most vulnerable.

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    1. I hate that it has come down to this but it is selfish to hoard when the supply is not the issue. It just saddens me that stores have to designate specific times for our elderly of society to shop because they can’t do it when everyone is crowding stores. It’s just we need to be better at a time like this.

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      1. I try to give people the benefit of the doubt. Maybe they have a large family or like myself, they only shop every once in a while and are trying to get a bit extra but some people really take things too far.

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  6. Oh lord, I posted this comment on the wrong post! I’m SO sorry. I would love it if you would delete it and help me save face. 😕

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  7. People will act differently in these type of situations as initially it is disrupting routine and change. All humans actually become very uncomfortable with drastic changes and will act out as it is unfolding. The panic buying will end up stopping and you will start to notice acts of kindness, as humans we will begin to realize the situation we are in and that is when we begin to unite. We all have our own personal struggles that may feel different to us. I suggest to be patient, do what works for you, provide kindness as we all need this right now. I do know some individuals used this as an opportunity to profit but those are less of. I wish you all peace, love and gratitude! This is really a tough time for the world!

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      1. I am creating a 21 day of gratitude and abundance, i just posted the first day. To create some balance to all this. It is very unsettling for sure. I am sorry to hear that, I really hope things will be able to turn itself around.

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  8. Same thoughts here! Let us all be considerate. Here in out country, we’re lacking alcohol and sanitizer supplies in the supermarket. It is totally fine sincer we’re at home and the supply we have at home is enough for us. But how about the people who needs it the most? The police officers, the militaries, the medical staff. 😣

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