Imagine being on a roller coaster. You sit down and you strap in – there is no turning back at this point. You are stuck and face the inevitable. Now you’re heading up the first big incline and it’s steep. You can’t stop it and you’re feeling overwhelmed and scared. As you approach the top of the steep incline, you are apprehensive about what comes next. All of a sudden you are plummeting down the steep hill with wild abandon. You feel exhilarated and unstoppable.
Such is my battle with weight loss amidst my mental illness. When I’m depressed, I am on an extreme trajectory toward weight gain and lots of it. I usually gain 30-40 pounds in a couple of months. I eat everything that is bad for me – sugar, carbs and processed foods. Then as quickly as I tumbled into a depression, I change direction and I’m hypomanic. I am super focused on my health & weight loss. I eat healthy foods and I’m very intentional about what goes into my mouth. I exercise every day and I’m always moving – I can’t sit still. And just as quickly, I lose the 30-40 pounds I put on when I was depressed.
It’s a vicious cycle and according to Medical News Today, “Losing weight for a short period and then regaining it bears the name of yo-yo dieting, which some people refer to as weight cycling. Previous research has pointed out the potentially damaging effects of these repeated cycle of weight loss and weight gain.” So not only is it frustrating, but it isn’t good for my health either, particularly my heart health.
Below is a picture of my weight fluctuating during 2017. This happens every year, but I happen to put these pictures side by side so thought I would share!
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord. “Plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”