A Ball of Stress for James

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I have been on overload lately. I get it, life happens and you either lean into it or let it control you. I tend to do something in the middle.

I have this love/hate relationship with stress. It is helpful to be a part of the hustle of life, and stress means that you are on the right path. At the same time, I let the stress take me over, and at times I let it go unchecked until I am a ball of stress without the proper way to deal.

I am always a work-in-progress, and I have been helped along my journey to continue to grow in this mental Illness world. I have things in this life that I am committed to, like getting my degree, my work as a freelance ghostwriter, and the big one–my writing. What drives me comes from my past. In my lost years and even past my last suicide, I had years to lose—no focus on the future or where I wanted my life to go at the end of the day.

My past has made an innate need to always be moving, still be focusing on the next “writing high,” or looking for ways to be productive. Being over productive is a real thing. There is no right or wrong with productivity, but when it comes to stress and overload, your productivity can be there, but not as effective. The worst part is that stress can effect self-care.

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That is where I want the rest of this post to go. In my recent experiences with overloading my day, I have used it as an excuse not to work on my self-care. I use the method of binge-watching my favorite shows to relax. Again, there is nothing wrong with this after a long day, but in this mental illness life, when you start to let go of self-care, you end up a ball of stress with nowhere to go.

That is what I felt during these past two weeks. All work and no play, and we all know what that did for Jack. Stress is one of the signs that you need to slow down. One of the things I did recently is to step back and figure out what is essential and re-insert self-care in whatever form that works for me. You can do the same. If we let stress control us, we can end with health problems like I get with my stomach. We are only here for a finite amount of time, and we can’t always be a part of the rat race.

I wish I had all the answers, but recently, I learned from a close friend that we can’t have all the answers. We make decisions in our lives. I can choose to overload or slow down. It is something we should all take a moment and look at because life is too short.

With that said, enjoy your day and stay strong in the fight.

Always Keep Fighting


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15 Replies to “A Ball of Stress for James”

  1. stress is such a major yet overlooked issue. Everyone knows that it is a part of every day life, so overlook it, yet when it gets out of hand it can be fatal. When you talk about stepping back, I fully agree with that, and I think it’s something we all need to do more of, including me- to know when it’s time to slow down is a real strength

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  2. Your words speak truth, recently I have found myself doing the same; after a tragic event I now know that I need to take time during this crazy life for self care. It’s amazing how fast self care can slip away, and after that it is a slippery slope. Thank you for your words.

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  3. I’ve been following your blog for a while now, every post you exhibit the hallmarks of wisdom. Wisdom is more then a badge of time, its a representation of living life, learning life lessons and have the ability to internalize and then apply to oneself. Bravo on your journey James, we are all rooting for you.

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  4. We are all a work in progress. I don’t think we ever want to stop being that. Stay well and remember to give yourself credit for all the things you do for others.

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  5. Thank You for this poignant post.

    I always like to think of plants when I talk about stress. For the most part, almost all plants are immobile. In order to thrive, they must learn to adapt and survive in response to stress — wind, pests, disease, fire, harvesting, maturation, global climate change, drought…the stress is endless.

    We each can resonate with one another in terms of stress but only we each uniquely can identify our particular stressors and our response/ defense mechanisms. Once we can do that, then we can not only survive, we can thrive. 🙂

    Thank you, James


  6. Glad you’re realizing the need to slow down and provide yourself with care along the way… Remembering to rest from the news, social media, and anything media in general will you benefit from as well… I’ve also been focusing on my spiritual relationship with GOD more consistently that has helped so much… There is a balance in what we can give/output and take in/positive input… Our soul and spirit need to do both…

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  7. Hi James
    Hi there
    I just read your post and I couldn’t agree more. Stress is a strange thing, on the one hand it can drive us on to do things with stamina, most can only imagine. On the other, as you mentioned self care & nurturing fall by the wayside.
    As a Buddhist & Traditional Indian Healer, I work closely with the mind and have seen stress in many forms and manifestations.
    You mention your writing & it sounds like this is a great outlet for you but please be careful. Take a step back sometimes & breathe.
    Best Wishes

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