Mental illness can be exhausting. I feel that this past two years have been a whirlwind of emotion and change. Both fast and slow at the same time. Depressive episodes … Continue reading Reflecting.
Twenty something headed into my thirties. I am in the awkward stage of being a broke college student and a full fledged adult. Contemplating life's biggest decisions while attempting to keep up with those around me.
My psychiatrist put in her two weeks notice. It is a difficult pill to swallow, knowing that I have to find yet another doctor. I don’t feel this way with … Continue reading Two Weeks Notice.
Haven’t written in a while. Blame the mental illness. I stopped doing a bit of everything for awhile. I finally moved and have been back in Arizona for a couple … Continue reading New Doctor, New Me.
I made it back home after a 17 hour drive, tearful goodbyes, and many many stops for gas. I feel relieved that I have removed myself from an environment that … Continue reading Reaching Out.
I am making moves towards my next goal of moving back home after moving out of state a year ago. I applied and applied for jobs until I finally found … Continue reading Running Towards Hugs.
I’m sorry. It is something I have found myself repeating often. I am sorry when someone has a bad day, when I mess up, when someone else messes up, … Continue reading Sorry Not Sorry.
I have always been a giver, but how much of that is out of guilt? I made a lot of poor choices as a kid. Namely that I used to … Continue reading Self-Sabotage.
I took a step forward today. I applied about a year ago to become a speaker for the Rape Abuse & Incest National Network (RAINN) speaker’s bureau. I suffer from … Continue reading I’m Better Than This.
I once read that a good strategy in dealing with bipolar is to recognize what is an episode and what is just a run of the mill bad day. … Continue reading The List.
Depression has consumed my life. I take my medicine, I go to the doctor, and I push myself to list the positives when I want to dwell on the … Continue reading A Little Reminder to Myself.
Sometime over the past couple months I just gave up. I stopped showering as often, stopped answering calls and texts from my family, and stopped going to class. If … Continue reading All I Need Is A Little Help From My People.
Please forgive me for the things I said And for the things I didn’t Forgive me for the outbursts For the door slams For the silent treatment Forgive me for … Continue reading Please Forgive Me.