I drove to school this morning listening to a Rachmaninoff piano concerto while taking in a breathtaking orange-red sunrise over the Eastern Cape veld. As always, the 35 minute drive … Continue reading When Your Heart Is Breaking
Tomorrow (July 11) is National Cheer Up the Lonely Day. With social distancing, isolation, and quarantine, this holiday is important now more than ever. I’m certain many people have never … Continue reading National Cheer Up the Lonely Day
Before COVID-19 I already had a tough time getting out of my house. I had been trying to be more social and do things with other humans that weren’t family … Continue reading Returning to Life After Quarantine: An Anxiety Story
30. Thirty. The big 3-0. I want to mark this time. (peep that pic of me celebrating graduation in late May) If you would have asked 20 year old me … Continue reading Thirty.
I avoid people with the best of them, and it is like self-sabotage because I fear that people getting too close means that I am open to people, if that makes sense. I tend to avoid confrontations and also intimacy just with friends because its easier. I struggle to be around people.
When change happens to me its only when someone challenges me. This person challenges me to look beyond my feelings of insecurities and take a look inside the core cause of my pain. To see what I am looking for in this life.
As an adult I’ve found it difficult to make friends and keep friendships afloat. I try my best but it doesn’t seem to be enough sometimes. During this quarantine period … Continue reading Left on Read
My therapist says that I am responsible. She says that I am kinda, She says that I am a good person. She says that I handle my stress with grace. … Continue reading My Therapist Says.
Since this quarantine has begun I have felt more pressure from myself to be productive. My depression and anxiety make me feel this way when life is normal but since … Continue reading “Achieving a Goal is not the Only Way to Live a Worthy Life”
I just posted this fantastic blurb about things really looking up and just like that, it’s gone. Where do I even begin? It is a long drawn out bit but … Continue reading Sh*t.
The other day I scrolling the internet (ok, I’ll be honest it was Weverse) when I came across a sentence that has stuck with me. I’ll give some context. The … Continue reading A Small but Certain Happiness
I have spent the last several months going to work and going home. Not much socializing. Sometimes once a month I would go out if invited to something. I was … Continue reading Learn to Love Yourself in the Alone Time