I often think about what life would have been like if that day in November 2007, at the age of twenty-two I would have refused to take medication. I was … Continue reading To be, or not to be Medicine Free
Although I was editor in chief (EIC) of my high school newspaper, I have never had the greatest copy writing skills. When I was the EIC, my copy writer was … Continue reading Bella’s Babbles: Copy Writing Skills
I’ve been up since 430 AM, it’s the new witching hour for me. Even my cats look at me like I have lost my mind. Sure they are ecstatic that … Continue reading Bella’s Babbles: Sunday Edition
I’ve learned that when I find myself in stressful situations is when my depressive episodes start to surface again. It’s why I’ve added exercise and meditation into my routine because it does help eliminate the stress and lifts that weight off of your shoulders.
Just from these photos, you can see the people that loved him and that five years ago came together to honor this great man. I love my grandfather to this day because he taught me so many great things that I have today. If only he would have seen me continue my recovery with Bipolar 1 and panic disorder, but I believe he is still here in spirit and watching over us with my grandmother.
I am making moves towards my next goal of moving back home after moving out of state a year ago. I applied and applied for jobs until I finally found … Continue reading Running Towards Hugs.
I didn’t know other people didn’t feel the way I did, or that it wasn’t normal to feel electrical impulses misfiring throughout my body from the top of my head … Continue reading Recovery is Possible (my post featured as a guest author on the Trigger Publishing Blog)
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That is not to say I don’t have social anxiety, it is just that my therapist is considering the last year with my increase in panic attacks to focus on this diagnosis. The main part of my “social anxiety” as I have called it over the last three or four years is the “fear” of having a panic attack in a public place. It is the most terrifying thing, and it is the cause of the anxiety the moment I leave my house. That preoccupation with the “panic attack” on my part has lead to a change in my diagnosis–panic disorder.
My brain is always moving quickly–thinking, planning, reminiscing, dreaming, creating and is actively working. It doesn’t shut down much. It has always been like this and it always will. That … Continue reading Don’t Be a Negative Nelly
First off, it was a crazy week. Full-time graduate student, working on my next fantasy fiction novel writing 5,000 words a day and finishing the second edits of my book that is in the publishing phase so that I can reach the final edits. All these things got done at the expense of my mental health and my work for the week. I bombed both assignments, something I have never done as an undergraduate (I graduated with 3.92-grade average) or in the three-plus courses of my graduate studies.
Last week was what seemed like an impossible week. Working to come down from weeks of mania we got aggressive (be aggressive, be be aggressive!) and it took a toll … Continue reading Finding Joy … in Jelly