Mmm. Interesting. What are my worst symptoms? That’s a tough question to answer. Feeling like death every day, lack of ability to concentrate, restlessness, depersonalisation, bouts of anger which … Continue reading Broken wiring
would take unwarranted risks like driving down the highway at 2 am at 100 miles an hour in my car. It gave me more energy the more reckless my behavior became, and it was a great feeling to “feel real” for the first time in my life. It was a lie because it was just the mania taking me over. I didn’t have to hide who I was in a manic episode so it never really registered as an issue like depression has over my life.
I feel better. My depression lessened over the weekend, and I have a good feeling about where the rest of February will go when it comes to the depressive episode … Continue reading What are Your Worst Mental Illness Symptoms
Something James said in his post (Its, Okay, not to be Okay …) about being trapped in the house and it taking years to get his life back. That resonated … Continue reading When taking your dog to the vet involves heroism
I have been on medication for my bipolar disorder – and depression before it – for a great number of years. The most recent cocktail of drugs has been the … Continue reading Mental Illness, Escapism, and Addiction
I’m in a dark place and I don’t know how I got here. Honestly, I feel like I’ve been hit by a train. Only a month ago I would said, … Continue reading The Dark Days
Some time ago I took myself to the cinema to watch Lars von Trier’s film Melancholia. Three quarters of the way through the film I got an attack of claustrophobia … Continue reading Days when life scrolls across the vision…
Gratitude. It’s a very powerful thing – in fact, it can be the momentum you need to keep you moving through the days you feel too tired to continue; tired … Continue reading Gratitude can’t always scare off your depression – and that’s ok
https://www.gofundme.com/rasing-to-upgrade-the-bipolar-writer-blog This is my GoFundMe under my real name David TC (I wasn’t sure if I could get the funds if I used my Pen Name James Edgar Skye.) Thank … Continue reading The Bipolar Writer Needs Help… Again
As a writer, the most important thing I can do every day is, well, write. After all, they say a writer is someone who wrote today, and by that measure … Continue reading Idle Hands, Busy Work and Fighting Off Depression
It’s no secret that the spectrums of mental illness come fraught with confusion, anxiety and fear, whether it be depression, bipolar disorder or schizophrenia. In some cases, the illness is … Continue reading Mental Illness and Cognitive Dissonance
What is going on? This is how it began. My diagnosis. It began with anger that I seemingly couldn’t control. It came out of nowhere and had no reasoning. I … Continue reading Throwing Anger Around Like Confetti.