In September, I got my CPAP machine. I was hopeful that I could finally start conquering this sleep issue and at the same time, improve my mental health. What amazed me about the machine was that it starts out at a low level of air pressure. As you begin to sleep, it increases to the number that they found during the second sleep study as the best pressure for me to sleep. It starts out at a four, and increases all the way to 15, which is very high but necessary.
I have been putting off talking about my sleep apnea and getting my machine that helps with the apnea until I am a few weeks into the new adventure. Sleep … Continue reading Is Sleep the Answer
Working on the Sleep Part of my Mental Health The First Step Over the past three months, I have been working on my sleep issues. Those that are new and … Continue reading Sleep Studies, Sleep Apnea, and Sleep Apnea Machines Pt. One
I’m having a very difficult day today. My anxiety levels are high while my depression is begging for me to crawl into bed where I can fall apart. Since my … Continue reading Encouraging Myself Before I Snap
When I first started on meds last July, I spent hours on google looking at online forums on how bad side effects could be with antidepressants. I was terrified that … Continue reading Scary side effects
Sometime over the past couple months I just gave up. I stopped showering as often, stopped answering calls and texts from my family, and stopped going to class. If … Continue reading All I Need Is A Little Help From My People.
My wife says she can always tell when I go off my medication. She says I stop making sense, speak gibberish, and do and say things that are utterly irrational. … Continue reading The Unfettered Insanity of Unmedicated Bipolar Disorder
My Mental Health and Personal Goals 2019 Edition It is that time of year when we begin anew and make goals and resolutions that we hope to keep in the … Continue reading 2019 Goals for The Bipolar Writer
A Mental Health Anniversary – Part Two It All Starts With Hope * I know that this piece was supposed to go live on Thanksgiving. I apologize for that, here … Continue reading A Mental Health Anniversary – 11 Years Later – Part Two
I figured it was a night for another single dose, so I did that, and still sleep escaped me. Hours had started to pass, and I began to panic that I wouldn’t get enough sleep, it turns out that was the least of my worries. Around 2 am, I decided I had to get some sleep before waking up and did the unthinkable. For the first time in five years, I took a max dosage.