The Nature Of Wisdom By: Francesca Seopa Sometimes if we just pause for a moment, Things become a little clearer, we learn something. These moments are everything, and we find … Continue reading The Nature Of Wisdom
A month ago I wrote about how I wasn’t feeling depressed, that I was able to feel happy and be productive (check it out here). It was really great while … Continue reading Falling Back Into Depression
I am learning to use my mindfulness breathing before my anxiety hits a high level, which has been a fascinating experiment. I do about fifteen minutes in the morning and spurts of three-five minutes throughout my day as a part of my routine. That is the other thing that I am getting back–a routine.
At my peak, I took an antidepressant, an antipsychotic, a mood stabilizer, anti-anxiety medications, and medication for sleep. That is a lot of psychiatric medication to deal with daily. It makes one think, what are the long-term effects of taking the same cocktail?
My anxiety has this charming habit where it can completely derail my life when it’s in the mood, but, today I wanted to share some pretty neat ways that I … Continue reading When panic attacks, this is how I regain control
Please don’t judge me for the title of my post, hear me out before you think of me as someone who is “fake” or “self-absorbed.” In my life, I have … Continue reading Makeup Saved My Life
It hurts when people erase us – our struggles, our scars, our victories, our invisible battles, a part of our lives that shapes us and our paths in ways others … Continue reading I’m not “too sensitive.” I’m mentally ill.
It took me years to get my depression to a manageable level of comfort. I feel as if there is no end to this feeling of constant anxiety. It consumes every waking moment. I wish for moments of peace, where I can just be who I want to be inside and out. I am struggling, and it feels so lonely in this fight.
Change is good. Tomorrow, October 31, 2018, I will be giving my collaborative blog some much-needed changes to the overall design, look, and feel of the blog. As this blog … Continue reading Changes on The Bipolar Writer Blog
It never occurred to me that Ativan has become a crutch in my life. I rely on it more and more throughout the last two years. It always seems less and less effective. The answer at the beginning of the year was to increase, and while it worked for a while, it just feels wrong lately. Let’s be honest, I am not dealing well with my social anxiety, it is more about living with the issues and not solving anything. I thought it was possible to let the anxiety run my life and save fixing it for another day.
I went to my appointment on Monday with some level of comfort. Then my world changed. My “over the webcam’ psychiatrist told me that the county is not allowing him to prescribe my most crucial medication right now– Ativan.
I am my own worse enemy because I can pretty much work and do school from the comfort of my desk. The last time I went to a coffee shop to work or study was last May when I was finishing my degree. So many things happened to me this summer that kept me from going where I was happy.