Seeing a friendship that was once vibrant with life and laughter die in front of your eyes can be a sad sight. As it takes its final breath, I have … Continue reading When I Was Not Enough: Death of A Friendship
A month ago I wrote about how I wasn’t feeling depressed, that I was able to feel happy and be productive (check it out here). It was really great while … Continue reading Falling Back Into Depression
Please don’t judge me for the title of my post, hear me out before you think of me as someone who is “fake” or “self-absorbed.” In my life, I have … Continue reading Makeup Saved My Life
Hey, you. Yes -YOU! -The one with your head hanging down, sitting in the corner with your vice at hand. I’m here to give you a pep talk. Hey! Put … Continue reading You Aren’t Struggling Because You Suck
My first psychiatrist, who was my psychiatrist from 2007-2012, was prominent in limiting my medication with alternative approaches. While eventually these things did not work as well, and I stopped most of them because of the many psychiatrist changes over the years, these are still important to share.
I am a planning type of person and knowing that SAD months are the hardest for me. I plan with my therapist to see her more frequently. In contrast, in the summer months, I only see my therapist once or twice a month.
To be in a place where suicide is the only option isn’t as fresh in my mind, but it is the worst feeling I have ever felt in my life. I remember it well. You never forget the depths of the darkness that is suicidal thoughts. The places that my mind went to when my depression was at its darkest was hell, and it felt like there was no escape. I wanted to be anywhere but in my own body.
You are your own worst enemy. How many times have you heard that phrase? If you’re like me and surrounded by smug do-gooders who consistently like to point out the … Continue reading Who Hates Me Most?
When you need someone is a common theme in this mental illness life. For today’s version of music that changes my mood, I decided to list songs that help me … Continue reading Music That Changes My Mood – Part 20
As human beings, regardless of our backgrounds, we’ve become conditioned to evaluate our success in life based on the monetary value of our material possessions. The impact of this trending … Continue reading The Long Road to Betterment
I’d like to tell you about the first relationship I ever had. I’m sure you’ve heard plenty of stories about first loves; in books, on the TV, via grandmothers and close friends. Everybody has a story to tell, whether it’s theirs or someone else’s. Lend me five minutes of your time and I’ll tell you about mine.
To those of us who’ve spent the majority of our lives struggling with anxiety and depression, one of the biggest obstacles to overcome is isolation. For me personally, this wasn’t … Continue reading Friendship, Reignited