If jumping to conclusions was a sport, I would be competing in the Olympics. See you all next year in Tokyo 😉 ! When something bad happens like I make … Continue reading I Jump to Conclusions like an Olympian
I am always trying to share my experiences with my followers on this blog. Sometimes, I forget to follow my own advice, and this is one of those times. In … Continue reading Keeping You Appointments
I have not written on here for a while because of how up and down my mental health has been. Especially over the past week, I have had some really … Continue reading The Ups & Downs of Being Mentally Ill
I’m in a dark place and I don’t know how I got here. Honestly, I feel like I’ve been hit by a train. Only a month ago I would said, … Continue reading The Dark Days
Gratitude. It’s a very powerful thing – in fact, it can be the momentum you need to keep you moving through the days you feel too tired to continue; tired … Continue reading Gratitude can’t always scare off your depression – and that’s ok
The first day on that stimulant was the night I became furious with myself in a conservatory practice room, blacked out (also known as having a dissociative fugue) and walked several miles out of town. When I came to, I called campus Safety and Security officers to drive out and pick me up. I got back to the dorm, popped two hydrocodone (my first attempt at self-medication), and stood outside of my room looking at the doorknob, feeling like there was a pane of glass between my outstretched hand and the door that I couldn’t possibly penetrate.
As the first day of the year comes to a close, I image myself on the edge of a cliff that is up high in the sky. I am able … Continue reading The Pressure to Succeed
Seeing a friendship that was once vibrant with life and laughter die in front of your eyes can be a sad sight. As it takes its final breath, I have … Continue reading When I Was Not Enough: Death of A Friendship
A month ago I wrote about how I wasn’t feeling depressed, that I was able to feel happy and be productive (check it out here). It was really great while … Continue reading Falling Back Into Depression
Please don’t judge me for the title of my post, hear me out before you think of me as someone who is “fake” or “self-absorbed.” In my life, I have … Continue reading Makeup Saved My Life
Hey, you. Yes -YOU! -The one with your head hanging down, sitting in the corner with your vice at hand. I’m here to give you a pep talk. Hey! Put … Continue reading You Aren’t Struggling Because You Suck
My first psychiatrist, who was my psychiatrist from 2007-2012, was prominent in limiting my medication with alternative approaches. While eventually these things did not work as well, and I stopped most of them because of the many psychiatrist changes over the years, these are still important to share.