First off, it was a crazy week. Full-time graduate student, working on my next fantasy fiction novel writing 5,000 words a day and finishing the second edits of my book that is in the publishing phase so that I can reach the final edits. All these things got done at the expense of my mental health and my work for the week. I bombed both assignments, something I have never done as an undergraduate (I graduated with 3.92-grade average) or in the three-plus courses of my graduate studies.
I’m in a rather crisis situation with a friend I have known since we were little girls. I’m not even sure where to begin. We are both in our early … Continue reading How Do I Get My Friend Help?
Please forgive me for the things I said And for the things I didn’t Forgive me for the outbursts For the door slams For the silent treatment Forgive me for … Continue reading Please Forgive Me.
You know when you are home alone, and every little noise will freak you out? This was not that. I have had this happen. When I was younger, I couldn’t … Continue reading Bumps in the Night.
One day I feel overly depressed and fail to get out of bed. The next day I am manic, and I can write the next great American novel.
Yesterday was the worst of it. My concentration was wavering since the moment I opened my eyes. I tried to write about one idea, and it failed. I quickly switched to another to no avail. I thought, okay James, let’s play a video game. That lasted about two minutes. Maybe it was the game? Nope.
Manic she creates Challenging its fate Teasing it She flexes Check’n it She mocks it While multitasking It’s only from up here she sees the depths she has visited A … Continue reading Mania
10 years. It still hasn’t sunk in. To the start of another ten-year journey. Today marks my official anniversary date of my first time attempting suicide. It feels so surreal. … Continue reading How Did I Get Here?
How I feel at This Moment #TheBipolar Writer
I am usually okay with being alone in my life. It suits my personality being an introverted writer, and for most of this year being alone was not an issue. … Continue reading The Feeling of Loneliness