I drove to school this morning listening to a Rachmaninoff piano concerto while taking in a breathtaking orange-red sunrise over the Eastern Cape veld. As always, the 35 minute drive … Continue reading When Your Heart Is Breaking
( written on Lockdown DAY 70 in South Africa , 10 weeks in ) Don’t do it. Kick the kitchen cupboard. It hurts. I know because I’ve done it a … Continue reading Kicked The Kitchen Cupboard Yet?
I wake up covered in vomit. There’s a tinge of daylight outside the shed. It’s cold. So cold. O God, no. Why did you make me wake up? I pleaded … Continue reading SNAKE (part 2)
The evening starts with the best of intentions. I have bought snacks and the wine is cooling in the fridge. Candle light flickers across the dining room ceiling. I pray … Continue reading SNAKE ( part 1 )
Examine the image closely. Imagine yourself on that stage, under those lights. Imagine all those seats filled with students. There’s anticipation in the air because they are finally quiet. Ready … Continue reading Aaaaaand…Action!
Think positively. Look on the bright side. Don’t be so hard on yourself. Don’t worry; be happy. Yeah; my brain’s not getting that memo. Despite hearing the merits of Cognitive … Continue reading I Give Myself Two Thumbs Down
There are often many things that fall by the wayside due to mental illness. They include, but are not limited to, hygiene, relationships, motivation, academics, social interaction, romance, honestly the … Continue reading In The Face Of Mental Illness
So, as you are all probably painfully aware, depression is an illness that can take all of the life out of living. This was the case for me. For roughly … Continue reading My Delusions
Hey all…I know that it’s been a while since you’ve heard from me…at least it feels that way. I probably even said that as the intro to the last post … Continue reading Fighting The Stigma
By: Andy Weir You were on your way home when you died. It was a car accident. Nothing particularly remarkable, but fatal nonetheless. You left behind a wife and … Continue reading The Egg Theory
Well… it’s been a while since I’ve shared one of my poems with you. It can be a different sort of raw/openness to share these with the public, a very … Continue reading Stuck on a Stranger
I took a step forward today. I applied about a year ago to become a speaker for the Rape Abuse & Incest National Network (RAINN) speaker’s bureau. I suffer from … Continue reading I’m Better Than This.