was so ecstatic about how I have been able to be so productive this winter. My seasonal component has not been an issue (SAD), but the past few days I could feel the weather changing my mood. It has been rainy here the last couple days, and while I often feel good when it rains it not the case at this moment.
The first day on that stimulant was the night I became furious with myself in a conservatory practice room, blacked out (also known as having a dissociative fugue) and walked several miles out of town. When I came to, I called campus Safety and Security officers to drive out and pick me up. I got back to the dorm, popped two hydrocodone (my first attempt at self-medication), and stood outside of my room looking at the doorknob, feeling like there was a pane of glass between my outstretched hand and the door that I couldn’t possibly penetrate.
Since December of 2017, I have been conducting interviews with people of all ages and sex that deal with having a mental illness in their life. It is my way … Continue reading Interview Features – The Series
That is what I did today. I broke through the fog of my depression and did some great things here on my blog, with my writing projects, and of course my school work.
One thing that helped me reduce the symptoms of SAD is a light therapy box. I have to tell you this invention is really amazing and it made all the difference last year while dealing with SAD, I found this great article that gives very detailed information in what to look for in a lightbox. It is highly recommended that you talk to your doctor about light therapy.
It has been a few weeks since I have written an interview feature. It has been the greatest thing to start sharing the stories of my fellow mental illness bloggers. … Continue reading Bringing Back Interview Features
Are There Different Levels of Depression? It’s a very interesting and intriguing question. Depression is such a hard thing to define by itself because there really are different types and … Continue reading Are There Different Levels of Depression?
I have a lot of things driving me at the moment. It’s the “why” when I first ask myself why should I get out of bed. I have the sheer … Continue reading What Drives Me
These weekly wrap-ups are always good for me because it marks the end of one week of The Bipolar Writer blog and the start of another. I spend so much … Continue reading My Weekly Wrap-Up 12/11 – 12/16
One of the biggest themes of 2017 in my life is my social anxiety and how it has changed my life. It is my “great unknown” in my life, and I … Continue reading How Social Anxiety Is Changing My Life
Well, I figured something like this would happen. Last night, I figured out a pattern of behavior in the middle of the worst panic attack of my life. I have … Continue reading Overload
It is safe to say that I am a coffee addict, and I wanted to write my 50th blog post on a subject I love. I have written about my love for coffee … Continue reading For the Love of Coffee – Part Two