Back to the situation, I had a suicide plan in place, and I will not make excuses for the why, but say I was in unbearable pain, and my natural default was to turn to the one place I never thought I would go, again–suicide. Life is the way it is, and I talked myself out of the plan and reached out to someone that put me on a safety plan after a day.
September is National Suicide Awareness Month and September 10 is World Suicide Prevention Day. You never know what other people are going through. Be kind whenever possible; it’s always possible. … Continue reading National Suicide Awareness Month
First, I like the thematical element. My depression has always felt like it comes into my life, always at the wrong times. It is a part of me, but as I learned over time, it can go for periods of my life. The idea that depression is this thing in my mind means I can fight it and eventually leave me.
I have written recently and in the past to say that “it is okay to not be okay.” I am living this idea, and it has been my mantra as I work towards getting my anxiety and depression to a reasonable level this week. It rained heavily here this weekend into today, so going beyond my back porch is impossible. Getting caught in the rain would surely not help. The last thing I want is to be sick.
Hope. That is what I am always saying in these blog posts. I was ready to die in 2010, and yet I was one of the lucky ones.
I have not written on here for a while because of how up and down my mental health has been. Especially over the past week, I have had some really … Continue reading The Ups & Downs of Being Mentally Ill
This is the first chapter of my memoir. I will be done writing my memoir at the end of November. Please take a read. I welcome and greatly appreciate ALL … Continue reading Shame Ate My Soul
It hurts when people erase us – our struggles, our scars, our victories, our invisible battles, a part of our lives that shapes us and our paths in ways others … Continue reading I’m not “too sensitive.” I’m mentally ill.
***Possible Trigger Warning*** This post contains content about suicidal thoughts and suicide attempts. This is a post I wrote about a year ago. This was just one of the many … Continue reading My Brain Was Trying to Kill Me
On a news report after the suicide of Kate Spade her friend said, “The Kate I knew always had a smile on her face.” A smile can be an illusion. … Continue reading What’s Behind a Smile?